A Betrayed Person's Point of View

For my Family

For my Sister, thank you for those bullying moments you have given to me. Thank you for treating me like a shit since we were little. Thank you for doing that because at that very young age of mine, you wanted me to be strong enough to survive what might happen in the future. 

and i guess im on that time frame now.

Thanks for doing that on the hard way, at least the feeling to be in pain is mutual. I guess, I'm immuned with it, maybe not that immuned enough to handle the situation right now. 

Well anyway, Thank you for preparing me to suffer right now. I guess, it lessen the pain.

I think so.,

I dont want to be against you but you made me do, I hate you ate, Why did you do that?

Ate Oly, Im already in pain, please dont make me suffer for more.

and for my soon to be pamangkin,(Why do I say so that she's bearing their baby? because she is suffering from morning sickness and other symptoms of a pregnant woman) Eventhough I hate your parents so much to the point that I might kill them anytime, I Wouldnt do that for you. I want you to be a well fined person that will love your parents just the way I did.

I want you to do that beacause I know, deep inside my sister's tough personality is a lack of love and attention kind of Oly which our parents had failed to give to her since the day that I came to our mom's tummy.

She may not be my biological sister, but I must love her just the way that I promised to our parents up until their last breath.

But Mom, Dad, may i break my promise for just 1 week? 

Just 1 week to hate her. I think, I cant manage to love her these next few days,

but i will surely do what I've promised to you after that week, just please forgive me .

I think , I just need this for me to survive. I wanted to be selfish for the last 1 week of my life.

I want to feel the pain for 1 week so that after that 1 week, I think my heart will be already dead and by that time, I'm completely numb.

I just need that 1 week to survive from the pain that might happen for the next 2 weeks and that is their wedding day. Seems to be on the rush huh? and well planned. 

I need to do this Mom and Dad. I must do this..

Gusto kong ilabas lahat ng pagkamuhi ko sa kanila up to the point na wala na akong mailabas na poot. Sobrang hirap na po kasi, ang bigat na sa pakiramdam.

Ma, Pa , sana po maintindihan nyo ko. But I will assure to you that after that, Im the only one that would suffer for this 1 week. I promise that I will not hurt any of them physically, maybe a little bit fo that guy. Oh! let me rephrase that. 

I promise that i will not hurt my sister for she is carrying her happiness but for that guy, I need to release these punches and curses for me to ease the pain inside of me.

I need to survive for you ma and pa. I need to live my life just like you wanted me to be.

But I guess, It will take time for me to do that...

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... A lot of time.