Growing up nobody ever warned me about love and how painful a heartbreak could be. I fell deeply inlove when I was 15 years old , my freshman year in high school. I was so convinced I met the love of my life. I never thought such a beautiful feeling could turn into my worst nightmare , and bring me to the lowest point of my life. Without no hesitation I gave this guy my all. I had no idea how heartless a person could be. I always seen him as a blessing in my life and loved him to the fullest. I'm not perfect , I had my flaws, but never did I give him a reason to do me so wrong. In his eyes most of the bullshitt he did wasnt wrong . I constantly forgave him because I loved him and believed one day everything would change. I was wrong , that day never came. Through the years so much happened , stuff I don't wish to remember but left a scar in me forever.
4 years later , I have finally realized that love was no good and it could be the death of me . As I sat in front of the mirror crying a river with my heart shattered into a million pieces , I repeatedly prayed for my pain to ease. The pain of my heartbreak was so immense only way out seemed by cuttin my life short ..
Late nights crying in silence, because I didn't want to be judged. Depression got the best of me at the time . I had to fake a smile but as soon as I was alone I broke down every time.
I know it's best if I think of him as dead and gone since it was so easy for him to move on. Why do I allow myself to feel this pain? He's nothing but a fake memory now ,a nightmare in a flesh ! I know they say time subsides the pain but that moment feels so far away. How do I mend a broken heart?
When my entire world is falling apart.
My mind constantly overflows with memories of him ,of all that we've shared , all that we knew!
