I'm Used To It

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I was having a good day today
I genuinely laughed
Smiled
And had fun
With my friends
I talked about things I like
Introduced some friends to
One of my biggest interests
They seemed to like it too
I even had fun
In practice today
But then I got home
I got the usual talk from my parents
And then hid in my room
And I started to feel
Better
But then I
Took a shower
That's when it hit me
Like a ton of bricks
WORTHLESS
STUPID
USELESS
UGLY
FAT
A MISTAKE
THE BAD EXAMPLE
NOTHING BUT A
DISAPPOINTMENT
SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN BORN
JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY
And I cried
But even if someone
Was around
They wouldn't have been able
To tell
The tears just blended
With the water already on my face
So now I sit
With nothing left in me
All cried out
Empty
Numb
Hating myself
But that's alright
I'm used to it

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