I Can't Think Of A Title Right Now

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All I've ever wanted
Was to feel happy in my life
Because when I'm not happy
Nothing feels right
But it's almost like
I've forgotten
How to feel okay
Inside my mind

My head is always foggy
Full of fears and doubts
Depression and anxiety
Always clouding my thoughts
It's hard to think straight
When I'm fighting back tears
I haven't been happy
In many years

I wear a mask constantly
To hide how I feel
Because I don't want anyone
To know the truth
I joke and laugh
But behind the mask
I don't feel happy
I just feel numb

I've come to realize
That it's always been this way
I've always had to struggle
To keep these thoughts at bay
I used to cry all the time
For every little thing
But now I think I've finally
Run out of tears

I don't think I will ever be
Happy with who I am
Because everytime
I look in the mirror
I can only think
About my flaws
I wish I was someone else
Because I hate myself

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