Paris Jackson; My Father Survived

Confessions

Paris' Pov

I felt so emotional right now and the fact that Dad just left me standing here wasn't helping. I just wanted to forget about everything and make things like they used to be. "Paris?" I jumped in surprise and looked down, Blanket was standing there staring at me. "What do you want Blanket?" I asked walking out of the room. He jogged to keep up and grabbed my arm.

"What did you do? Dads not happy."

"Why don't you go ask Dad then?!" I blurted out losing my patience. Blanket jumped back and stared at me again with a judgemental expression. "I don't have time for this." I ran down the hall and didn't stop until I got to the music room where Dad kept most of the instruments.

I walked to the piano and ran my fingers along the keys. Music always helps me calm down, especially when I'm fighting with Dad. I looked behind me to make sure I was alone and sat down at the piano. I hesitated only playing a few keys before I felt the music take over me.

"Hey dad look at me. Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it. I just wanna make you proud. I'm never gonna be good enough for you.

Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me.
'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever.

I'm sorry. I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back. I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me. Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect.
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said. Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and. We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect"

I played one last note as a tear trickled down my face. I couldn't tell Dad I felt this way... it'd break his heart.

Michael's Pov (new!)

I looked over at the clock in my room as it hit 7 and sighed. I had to go talk to Paris before I leave. Things can't stay this way between us especially with me leaving for so long. I dropped the shirt I was folding and walked out of the room. It was really quiet and I couldn't see anyone around. "Hello?"
"Dad?" I turned around and sighed in relief when I saw Blanket walk around the corner. "Blanket.. are you okay?" I noticed tear streaks down his cheeks and pulled him into a hug.