For Now, and For Forever (A Septiplier Story) (A Kik Story)

Eight

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I'm crying.

Why won't anyone save me?

I'm hurt, can't you see me? I'm hurting all over.

Damn Mark and Jack. They're the only two people everyone cares about anymore. They don't care about the news, no TV, no. It's all about YouTube. The two stupid greedy bitches.

They're a failure. I'm a failure. Maybe a little boy like me will get adopted one day. By a good family. Not by the damn family that abandoned me.

Grah, Mark and Jack are the best. How can you not like them? I'm just mad this all happened to me. Why can't people be loving and actually care about other people? Why can't you do that?!

I bring out my pocket knife and cut myself on the arm, just below the one I made yesterday. I groan in pain, no one cares. No one ever cares about me. I'm surprised I haven't killed myself already. I'm so bad. I deserve to be in hell.

I'm like the devil's son. Except I don't enjoy killing people. I hate doing that. So why am I doing it? My mind is evil, but it wants love in it. It just wants to live a good life.

Hopefully a family will adopt me someday.

I shake the stupid thought out of my mind. I bring out my phone and go on YouTube. At least these two people bring me happiness. I smile, very weakly to see that Mark has done a new video. It's labeled: Whose Line? Part 2. I click on the video.

It isn't very long. It's only about 6 minutes long. I sigh as I watch. '... and all the way from Ireland, Jack!" Mark points to Jack. 'Hey, guys, how's it going?' He says. I watch the rest of the video until it gets really weird...

What the heck? Mark and Jack are dating?? Good for them! Ethan and Tyler, too? Well this video has gone from funny to sexy in like a matter of two minutes. They are kissing like crazy. I'm slightly aroused at the sight of Ethan kissing Tyler like crazy and the hand on Mark's chest by Jack....OOH! Okay, I'm getting too crazy.

I sigh. "If only this happened to me." I say to myself, sadly and quietly. I put my phone away after the video ends and close my eyes, wincing at the pain my arm is feeling. I go to sleep on the hard concrete floor, with only my clothes to protect with from the warmth.

I want a family so bad. I'm not gonna lie anymore. I really do want a family. And I don't want just some family that will pretend to love me, I want an actual family. One that cares for me. One that actually loves me. But I'm just going overload. There are few people in the world that are like that anymore. It's all negativity around here.

This sucks. I want to be in a home forever.

That will never happen.

This is confusing but it gets better.