Outbreak

Chapter 2

Click, click, click

I try to focus on the consistent sound pattern from my shoes to block the thoughts. Soon I find myself walking towards her grave.

You know you can't do this every night Harry

My obnoxious subconscious reminds me. She was everything to me.. now i have nothing. The one who taught me everything I have grown to learn, gone.

When I reach her grave I sit down and tell her what happened within my day.

"Today was better, no new cuts and I ate some. I miss you a lot and everyday that passes by is another day of hell. I keep trying to push back the thoughts but I can't live like this anymore, not without you."

The tears are now falling unwillingly from my face onto the ground.

"I'm trying.. trust me I am but I just can't deal with all these new things that I can't even figure out myself. I need you here to help me through this."

"I need you... Mom"