haikyuu drabbles

hurt

In my eyes, he was the sun, the moon and the stars all wrapped up in one beautiful, glowing person.

He wasn't particularly smart, particularly handsome and didn't really stand out much, but to me, he was practically my whole world.

Despite us only talking so little that I could count the amount of conversations on two hands.

He never really noticed me, but then again, no one really did. He only really talked to me if he needed help, or wanted to borrow a pencil from me.

He didn't really need me, he had his own circle of friends and I was not included in that, but I was completely okay with.

Completely okay with admiring the small, ginger boy from afar.

I was never shy about my little crush, in fact, I was quite open about it, not really understanding why I should hide it.

Well, up until he started dating a very talented, cute, funny girl, things that I was completely opposite to.

"Hey, don't you like Hinata?" People would ask me, "You do know he's dating someone, right?"

I knew he didn't really care, he had no reason to, we weren't exactly friends. Yet it still hurt.

It hurt so much, I felt gutted. I felt like I was on the edge of insanity, about to rip both my intestines straight out of my body.

The constant reminder that I would never be good enough, that I would never be pretty enough, I was too shy to even talk to people and the fact that I would never find anybody just hurt far, far too much.