•On Hold• Trust me,I've got You!(laurinah)

💙Chapter 1~ So wrong, but it feels so right💙

Lauren's pov

Honeslty I don't think I could hate life as much as I do now. Everyone takes a look at my life from the outside not the inside, not from my perspective. Although I don't really think you would want to its pretty bad, like really bad. However im gonna tell you about my terrible life anyway...

So I guess I should start off by telling you guys who I am. My names Lauren Michelle Jauregui I'm from Miami, but I just moved to Santa Ana California I have a sister and a brother named Taylor and Chris, my dad is named Mike and my mother is called Clara.

It sounds like a normal life, but if anything I think it's the worst I have homophobic parents which doesn't help the fact that I'm bisexual, and since they found out they acted as if I was a disease. So that's the reason why I've moved to Cali. My parents kicked me out and moved me here because I was a "disgrace" to the family.

Ever since my siblings and I were young our mother would tell us that being apart of the LGBT community was wrong, but the way I see it is completely different I think that love is love no matter who the person or gender.

Well I'm used to it now I guess, there are two things in this world I love and keep me going strong which is writing, and drawing I've always loved to draw since I was little I remember it all to
o clearly I would always be drawing with the person I care about dearly Dinah, my best friend.

The person always there to put a smile on my face, the person who has the most immense heart I've ever seen, she cares about people so much. Honestly everything about her is breathtaking from her caring touch, to her mesmerizing chocolate brown eyes. She is perfect and her gorgeous thick figure doesn't help either. Everything about her is just so amazing.

Dinah knows I love art it was always her and I coloring our favourtie lion king coloring book since we were little, lion king was and still is our favorite movie. Dinah is the person who's stuck by my side basically all of my life and when she moved here I was still back in Miami missing her but I'm here in Cali now and I couldn't be any happier, Dinah and I met in nursery (kidnergarden for americans).

There was this specific blue table we would sit at, blue was Dinah's favorite colour, then we would trade, I would take her nutella sandwich and swap with my peanut butter and jelly one, then she would take my orange juice and give me her apple juice, after that we would share my mango slices with each other, mango was our favorite fruit.

Dinah and I did that everyday, I appreciated small time I got to spend with her, I like how unique and different she is, I love every little thing she does, the cute nick names she calls me like Ralph, Lo, Lolo or the one I love the most her love bug.

The first time I met her at nursery was when I fell off the monkey bars, I started crying and my knee was bleeding but Dinah was there holding me and never letting go and that's when she said those words that have stuck to me this very day "Trust me, I've got you" and its true I really did trust her with all my heart.

Actually all these memories bring me back to what I'm currently doing now, sitting in my chair on the balcony annoyed about how much I'm falling for her, and its almost impossible for me to stop. It's so wrong, but it feels so right.

As im sitting on my chair I watch over the beautiful city it's so quiet, the huge lake is reflecting the pitch black, night sky with twinkling starts. The trees are dancing, swaying to the rhythm of the wind. The leaves are silently sleeping on the rock hard floor, as people walk over them making crunching sounds. Then there is the moon also watching over the city as I am, but I can't help wishing I was watching all of this while in Dinah's arms. This right here is another thing I love, nature.

I'm actually dreading seeing Dinah at school tommorow, because I know I'm just going to fall for her even harder, and knowing she doesn't feel the same is what's making my heart sink more, and more.

I don't want to go to school I hate it, there is always so much drama, and this girl called Chloe always bullies me she just has that bitchy face you want to punch. I can't tell Dinah she bullies me though she'll kill her, I always have to come up with excuses as to why I have bruises and it's actually kind of annoying. Although I hate having to lie to Dinah to be honest.

I close my balcony door on the way inside to my room I sit on my bed feeling the comfortable mattress sink a little adjusting to my weight, I slowly bring my legs in the air, carefully placing it on my bed. I then lay on my back sinking my head into my pillow, exhaling, I place the palm of my hand on the screen of my phone curling my finger tips around the sides to access a better grip of it I slowly and cautiously pick it up.

I then turn the screen on with the click of the button on the left hand side, squinting my eyes so my pupil's are able to adjust to the light, I see that I have a missed call from Dinah sighing I swipe my sweaty thumb pad across my phone screen typing the password in, I unlock it, click on Dinah's name and call her...

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LQOTD: Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care, but because they don't.

Xoxo~A💖💙