Perfect for each other *DISCONTINUED*

I will ruin the boy I love

(Darkiplier's pov)
                                "Morning boys take your meds." Luke said he looked tired.
                                 "Is Ethan gonna be OK?" Seán asked worried.
                                "Not really sure he's unconscious. It's just a do what ever day." Luke said leaving as we took our pills I noticed Seán was wearing my jacket and stuffed my hand in the front pocket only to find no notebook I honestly expected it to be there.
                                "Dude it's under the counter in the sink." Anti said OK now I'm confused. I grabbed it seeing nothing else written from when I had last wrote. Mark hates me. Markimoo is probably not to far from hateing me. Wilford Warstache probably has no clue what's going on.
                                    "Why am I such a fuck up!" I scream bearing my head.
                                   "Please don't cry." A new voice it was so Irish and quite. I looked up to seen Seán or who ever he was walking toward me. I then understood this was the one no one knew. This boy trust me enough to talk to me. This was a person I could yell at and no one would know. It doesn't matter if he loves me because I'm worthless. I'm nothing. I don't deserve to be loved. Everything I love leaves.
                                 "I'm tired. I'm so tired of being happy, pretending there is nothing wrong, pretending that I deserve love, pretending to be be nice, pretending to be someone I'm not!" I yelled crying he jumped back but then walked over to me.
                                  "Dark I'm gonna say this once and only once. I love you I don't care what you think but I love you. I want to be your boyfriend but if your not ready I can wait. Hell I can wait forever." He said his was amazing and yet a was lying.
                                "I will ruin you. I will ruin the boy I love!" I yelled grabbing his wrist pulling him toward me.
                                "Do you know how easy it would be to hurt you right now." I wispered dropping his wrist I expected him to leave but he didn't. He climbed onto my lap holding me no matter how much I screamed at him. I was crying a fell asleep. I felt my self being moved and the love of my life crawled into bed with me hugging me. I slept in something I knew wouldn't last. This boy is amazing and could have who ever he wanted. He won't want someone like me.