Homophobic (Lashton) +Editing+

Chapter 10

Ashton's P.O.V

I looked at Luke, trying to process what he just said. I tried to speak to him but nothing came out. He looked at his hands and sometimes looked up at me. I was so confused, everything was a scramble. I finally spoke up, "Luke... This is going to be hard for you in every way. It's happened before but it's gonna be hard to work through this homophobic thing."

He looked up at me and said, "I'm willing to try."

I sat silent again. He looked down again. "I'm willing to help you.", I whispered.

We both sat in silence until he asked, "How do you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Take the hate."

"Oh that. Well at first I actually didn't. I almost cried every night. I had no friends, people beat me up. But now it's all good, I've gotten used to it all. Made friends again, no one even touches me any more." I explained.

"Oh.."

"I don't think it'll be that bad on you, Luke you're more respected. you have more connections than me." I told him.

Again we became silent. I set my coffee down and kept my hand on the table. He put his coffee down and put his hand on mine. I looked up at him in surprise. He looked at me with an uncomfortable smile but didn't hesitate to pull his hand away. I turned my handover and entertained my fingers with his. He still hadn't pulled his hand away. He said, "Well there's step one. And check that off my list."

I smiled and asked if he wanted to go to the park. He hesitated but I said, "It will help. Being in public will show you're not scared."

"What if theirs someone I know there?"

"If you don't feel comfortable with that you don't have to hold my hand you can just act lovey, if you want.", I explained.

"But I want to... I-I like it."he said quietly.

"That's okay."

I started to sit up and he did too. We left our coffees and headed out the door. He kept me close, our hands still intertwined. I smiled. I've always wanted this. I've loved Luke. Even when he did all he did to me. I loved him through it all. Even when I said I hated him and called him bad things, I always wanted this to happen.

"Hey Luke?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't know if you know this but I've always wanted you to, you know, love me", I blushed.

"You have?"

I shook my head yes. He smiled brightly. I'm glad I finally got the chance to see this side of Luke. We entered the park and I ran to the swings, letting his hand go. He ran after me I jumped on the swing and he sat next to me. We both swung and laughed with each other. This morning is so nice. Best morning of this year. And I hope this Luke stays.

"I love you", he said softly.

"I-I love you, too", I said.

Luke's P.O.V

This I such a hard thing to do. I really do love Ash. I know he's probably scared. He know this is going to be difficult. I want this to last. I want to be with him. I want to protect him. I don't know where any of this has came from but I'm okay with it. I want him to myself and I don't know why. I love him and I just hit me. I'll admit that I like the feeling too.