It's Only Money

Reassurance

It was 3 in the morning and Camila still wasn't asleep. Ever since her and Lauren had kissed, she couldn't shake the sinking feeling from her stomach.

She was gay.

She had tried so hard for so long to suppress her feelings. She didn't think it was wrong, but her parents were extremely homophobic, so she had always tried extremely hard to be good for them.

She knew it was completely okay to be gay, she would just need some time to adjust to actually identifying as it.

She rolled over and over, attempting to get comfortable for the hundredth time that night, remembering why she never tries to sleep sober.

She felt that she should be more upset and shook about not having a proper home, but she had no connection to her old home. She was hardly ever there, and it had little to nothing in it.

She couldn't ever afford anything.

She knew she shouldn't be so open and careless with Lauren because she knew little to nothing about he, but there was an I describable force that just made Camila trust her.

It's not like she was scared of what Lauren would do to her. She had nothing left to lose. She had gone home with worse people than her. She was more afraid of what Lauren would think of her.

Doubts and guilts came rushing over Camila as she thought about what Lauren could possibly think of her.

She had lost her house, arrived drunk, and puked on her floor. Then took her clothing, food, couch, and kissed her. Not to mention she had mentioned that she had been a complete slut beforehand.

Camila felt her eyes begin to sting and the familiar lump form in her throat. She didn't want to cry again. Crying made her feel weaker than she already was. Crying made her mad that she couldn't get her fucked up life back together. She really wanted a drink right now.

She felt the first hot tears stream down her face as she let a single sob escape her mouth.

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Lauren stumbled into the bathroom, checking the clock.

3:10 am.

On her way back to her bedroom she heard quiet sobs coming from the living room. Snapping to her senses, she remembered Camila and everything that had happened the day before.

Walking over to the couch, she sat down on the couch next to the girl laying down. Her head was buried into the pillow, trying to conceal her sobs.

Lauren gently placed her hand on the smaller girl, slowly rubbing circles on her back, causing Camila to turn her head, seeing the dark silhouette of Lauren.

No words were exchanged for about twenty minutes until Lauren broke the silence.

"Is there anything I can do." She didn't cease rubbing Camila's back.

Camila turned her head so her cheek was laying on the pillow.
"I just feel so bad for intruding. I want you to know that you can kick me out whenever you want. I can find a job and collect enough money. I could make it. You're not obliged to do anything. Please know that. I know I'm disgusting and I'm so sorry I put all of this on you," she finished with a final sob.

"Camz." Lauren was shook. "You being here has made me happier than I have been in a long time. Just the presence of another human is enough. I don't care about your past or even your future. Right now I'm just happy to have company, not to mention extremely attractive company."

Camila felt her stomach flutter at Lauren's words.
"I'm really going to try to get my life together."

"And I'm going to try to help you the best I can."

At these words, Lauren stood up.
"Trust me. I will." She grabbed an unused blanket from the end of the couch and walked over to the empty couch, laying down.
"But right now, we've got to sleep. Everything seems so much worse when you're tired."

Camila definitely agreed with that.

She started drifting back off to sleep when she heard Lauren's voice cut through the darkness.

"Do you mind if...if I, umm..."

Camila looked up to see Lauren's arm extending, holding her hand out for Camila to take.

The couches were only about a foot apart, so Camila reached out, lacing their fingers together.

Letting their arms fall in between them, still attached, they both felt butterflies as they drifted off to sleep.

YEET HEELO GUESS WHO'S BACK.
YEP IT'S ME.
Sorry I've been away for a while. I just never had the time to come up with ideas and actually sit down and write. My apologies.
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I was gonna update earlier today but I got sucked into fetus Camren videos. Sorry not sorry.

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