Mă Chinuie Talentul - Art Book #2

Down with my demons

You know that this, drawing and stuff remains just a hobby that stays on the top of my heart like a lil kid crying for existing.. Saying "I want to be born by your mind, heart and hands in pure passion mama... To release your pain.." and I hear that voice coming from the void... I just do it sometimes (drawing) to show to that child I call "Aiden" some love like a real mother...

For those who had read or not the description of this book it damn has a meaning for how I actually feel about art itself :

"Dacă arta ar fi o persoană, m-ar urâ din suflet, pentru că deși o iubesc am lăsat-o de izbeliște fără ai mai da atenție, fără ai mai dedica timp, sau vreun efort de voință și atârn de relația noastră ca de un fir subțire și firav... Și acum m-am întors târâș înapoi să îi cer iertare, să mă primească înapoi căci aici și acum îmi declar înfrângerea și subordonare sub controlul ei.

Just put me under the spell, because it feels so good to have a reason to live as I put a pen on paper to create the words I failed to say, sweet art may you have your revenge on me... "

And I mean all of it. Is my way to escape and I do for a lil while, but when I'm cut up from the opportunity I just can't escape anymore.. But when I do it I just feel f*cking great...

So thank you for being there to catch my hand and bring me up on that roof with you all, sit and chat for a while,laugh bc this is how it feels and it's hella fun.. Even tho for a while it is waaay to silent now that I'm back.. But I don't mind..

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Also being down with your demons it's kinda hard and sometimes you just can't, it's beyond a human's power, but when you do that's gotta be WitchCraft bc it should be a witch's hand in all of this, ya know, it feels like magic... Way too good to be true, so there's gotta be a plot twist, right? That's called being moody maybe..

Also how about some black and white version bc I'm bored dunno..

And that's all for today and maybe tomorrow I'll post another, who knows maybe a painting or another one like this..And sorry for seaming way to dead at the end of this chapter. Sometimes you just can't hide it, I'm sorry, but soon it will get better, also enjoy the music and the message and let me know every time what you feel about the songs bc I put a thought in all of them and sometimes feelings..