What is my gender?

Is this the end?

Well..... I can't make up my mind.

I've been telling myself that I'm trans.

But, I think this is where I give up.

I can't think straight...... My mind keeps yelling at me! It tells me that I'm wrong. It tells me to be like everyone else. Conform to societies norms. Be the girl you are supposed to be! I am just lying to myself! It's all one big lie! I am not who I believe I am.................... But then again, maybe it's my mind that is wrong....

It still doesn't explain why I cry myself to sleep... thinking about how much of a fuck up I am. How I'm wrong. I'll get out of bed at 1am just to find the girliest outfit I have. I'll stand in front of my mirror and question where I went wrong....... but I may never know if it's my fault or not.... I can't even figure out my own emotions anymore.....

So to everybody out there reading this. Hoping for help on gender or anything really. You look beautiful/handsome/amazing today and everyday. You are correct with how you feel. If you ever want to talk, please just message me. I'm always here to listen and help in anyway I can........ and I hope some of you are there for me too when I need it.