GUILT (COMPLETED)

GUILT

I never have a mother.
I was the reason she died.
father may not say it.
but I can see it.
his eyes tell.
His actions show.
he despise me.
I am a killer.
for I have killed my mother.
I am diving alone in the ocean.
no hope.
No one helps me.
they keep on pushing me.
till I can't take it no more.
its already stuck in my head.
engraved in my mind.
it cannot be erased.
it keep on hunting me.
they hate me.
For I am a killer.
I am an outcast.
my father disowned me.
for I have killed what he love.
nobody cares.
nobody loves me.
I am unwanted in this world.
even GOD hates me.
for he let me live.
to suffer.
to feel this unwanted guilt.
that keeps on eating me.
I can't take it anymore.
for all you have done to me.
for all you have shown to me.
for all you have let me felt.
I still love you.
for you are my father.
don't scream.
don't cry.
Don't let them see it.
Keep it all inside of you.
The pain.
The excruciating pain.
It is not love who let me live.
goodbye! Goodbye! Goodbye!.
I keep on trying to escape.
this life GOD has given me.
I keep on diving in the ocean.
But I always go back to shore.
I shouldn't have lived.
I don't deserve to live.
for I am a killer.
"You were born, but she died".
Father keeps saying.
I lived but my mother died.
Because of me.
I keep on carrying this guilt.
I don't want to.
but I have no choice.
for I am guilty.
Guilty!.
I m charged guilty.
For killing my mother.