my thoughts 2.

February 23rd

Last night I was listening to big time rush and it made me so happy. Like so many memories with that band. Tbh it's my fav boy band still to this day😂

^^omg I just remembered I've seen them in person once. They weren't preforming but their concert was the next day. It was at the state fair. Ah good mems

wow I just remembered I also made a whole btr notebook dedicated to them. I loved them so much when I was younger. I should try and find that notebook cause I've never had the guts to throw it away😂

(still talking about btr) elevate was my favorite album. I love it man

My stomach hurts rn

I can't wait till I can go to sleep tonight. I say that every morning but recently I've been loving sleep

I'm in such a bad freaking mood rn. Like don't even talk to me otherwise imma be pissed. I haven't been in this bad of a mood in so long I don't even have a good reason to be mad. I'll explain the story

So in English we had to do another discussion and this girl was saying how if I don't participate she's gonna say like "do you have anything else to say Kathlyn" or something like that and I specifically told her not to do that like 10 billion times. She just kept saying it and threatening that she would do it and she just kept going which started to make me pissed. Then the discussion came and you know what she did? She called me out in front of the whole class (not really calling out but that's just what I'm saying) and all the pressure was on me and I just felt so embarrassed cause public speaking is legit one of my worst fears. And I specifically told her not to do that and she should've respected that

most people wouldn't even be that mad if something like that happened to them but if you do that to me and I have a fear of public speaking, ya I'll be mad

I hate when people are like "why don't you talk more it's not bad" like boy wtf you don't know what it feels like to be afraid to speak your mind. Sorry I'm mad rn

I don't know what the heck is going on

I realized that people throw me under the bus a lot actually:/

Ok you know what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna change into comfy clothes, lay in bed, watch YouTube and turn off my phone. I really need to chill out rn

wow this day keeps getting worse and worse

I'm actually crying rn cause I'm in such a bad mood and I'm stressed. Nothing even really happened I just woke up in a bad mood (and freaking English class is a living hell for me) I have a C-. A FREAKING C- OMG that has me stressing so much rn. I went from an A to a C- for not participating in a stupid discussion. I'll try my best to get that grade up but there's nothing a can really do😭

relax Kathlyn it's okay. Other people are failing all their classes. Think of the positives

Today was just an overall crappy day