The Beauty Of Silence

Invisible Lovers And Horrid Memories

Passion, hurt, happiness, pain, relief, lust.

Those were the feelings I felt when I kissed Jason. But what bother's me now is what's going to happen next? What will happen if Ryder finds out? I know he'll be mad at me, but will he hurt his brother who's been with him this whole time?

Making sure he's safe?

I shiver at the thought of his piercing dark green eyes staring straight at me with that evil smirk on his face. Will he break the deal if he finds out that I kissed his older brother? Will he even care? So many questions I would like to get answers to, but I know I can't without consequences that would follow them. I rub my index finger in small gentle circles on Jasons chest afraid to break him. I'm still amazed at his bravery, coming back to a home that doesn't love you is tuff. I should know,but the difference is I wasn't allowed to leave mine until that day when I escaped.

It wasn't easy, but I got a head start on the chase and here I am being taunted by them in my nightmares. I rather that than feeling the pain all over again.

But if I did had a sibling would I go back for them? I look up at Jason's calm face, his eyes were closed a smile tugging at his lips.

I wonder what he's thinking about? I stare at him longer admiring him. He's an inspiration of what other people should be like, what I should be like.

I close my eyes and listen to my surroundings. Were so far out you can't hear any traffic, people, anything, but the sound of birds chirping and once in a while you hear a splash from a fish, crickets singing to each other. A peaceful silence.

I feel warm lips linger on my forehead. I open my eyes to see a smiling Jason.

"What are you thinking about?" He asks. I move closer towards him. "Why did you bring me here?" I practically whisper out. I lay there waiting for his answer while I listen to his heart beat, calm and relaxed.

"A long time ago my brother and I would come down here and swim with our...parents, when our life was normal and peaceful." I could tell he had a hard time saying that word , who wouldn't, I can't even say it. "Good memories were made here." He looks over at me with a soft smile. "I wanted you to forget about the bad memories and make new ones."I smile. "Is that what you do?"

He nods slightly at me, then a thought crosses my mind. "How long did you know.. about me?" He looks up at the sky, which was turning dark. Soon were going to have to leave this place and go back into the chaotic world we live in.

"I was a bit suspicious when I first met you, the way you said "yeah" when I asked you if you were okay, I knew you weren't,probably because I say the same answer everyday." He looks at me and smiles. "Then I really new, when you wore that leather jacket at my party." I forrow my eyebrows. "How?" I ask. His smile widens.

"Because a body like that doesn't deserve to be hidden, unless it's hiding something and I was right it was hiding all the pain and embarrassment, that my brother is using against you." I widen my eyes, how does he know? Did Ryder tell him? If so who else did he tell? "Don't worry, he didn't have to tell me, I found out on my own." I look at him confused and find myself asking how again.

He lets out a short chuckle. "I overheard you two's conversation and when I went to visit Ryder at school I saw you two together and you didn't look happy at all, so that just backed up what I already knew." I didn't even see him that day, then again I was to busy avoiding people to notice him.

"Why didn't you come into Ryder's room to help me?" I watch as his smile goes away into a deep frown. "My father showed up and I didn't want you to get into the crossfire, so I kept him busy." I gasp in shock. "I'm sorry, if I would've have known." I didnt know what else to say so I layed there in his arms listening to him breathing.