Think. || A Collection Of Poems

Choosing To Ignore

When the silence had fallen,
Like trees being cut down from,
Somewhere,
Somewhere being the only place they knew,
Turns out,
Just like them trees,
I had fallen too

It was only months later that I had realised,
I hadn't just fallen,
No,
I had been cut from,
Cut OUT of your life,
Thrown away,
Unwanted
I had never done anything, per say,
Wrong
Me, myself and I,
The thing that you had once loved,
The only thing that I had ever known,
Was wrong.

As a result of this I ended up with red palms from taking showers that were too long,
My eyes were stained red because of the tears that came free just like the shower water in the place that I wept,
Because showing emotion publicly was once again,
Wrong,
And even when I had my phone in my lap in the middle of the night, crying, messaging you to tell me why, to explain yourself, to explain everything,
It seemed as though I had disintegrated into nothing,
You never checked the messages,
It was as though
I was dead,
You were dead,
The messages never read,

And so,
I had done so, asking nicely, coming off as needy,
Until the day I got angry,
With you,
With Myself,
And even after all that you had done
Or hadn't, in this case,
There was still more anger towards myself,
Because I had cared too much to hurt you,
It hadn't mattered to me what you did or didn't do,
Because I had still needed you,
And I wanted you to need me too

But I guess that day will never come,
Now will it?
Even though I had thought we would be the ones that lasted,
You proved me wrong
It must be a disguting victory,
Satisfied with our actions,
Now aren't we?

And I know that you don't deserve these words,
You deserve to be thrown away,
Forgotten,
Just like me,

These tears, though, think differently,
They want you back,
No matter how much they're suffering,

And even after everything that had been done
I dont hate you
I forgive you,
I guess I'm back to square one

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A/N: Hey guys. I know that a lot of you would have come from my fanfiction, and this isn't exactly what you would expect from me, but I just thought that I'd try something new. I hope you like it, and if not, then that's fine too. I'm not a poet. I just like to try.