Not Criminal At All. (Jb fanfic)

Chapter 9

YOUR POV:

I don't know why I suddenly thought he cared and wasn't going to leave me here, no one cares about me I mean will anyone even notice my absence? Will I be missed? I couldn't hold In my tears any longer I'm so used to feeling like his but I only cry when I'm alone normally I can turn to my razor blade and this will aid my emotional pain by causing a physical type of pain which in some strange way I like it, it gives me a form of comfort. I can really on a piece of metal more than I can people. I mean look at what just happened I thought I could trust Justin to keep me safe and get me out of here but he left like everyone else. They all leave eventually, but my thoughts were moved on to Justin, he's very mysterious it almost seems like there's something inside haunting him and he's running away from it you can see by the look in his eyes that he's constantly thinking maybe worrying, and he seemed so against a man abusing a woman there's define talk something he is hiding, but don't we all have some thing we hide? At this point the tears were still streaming down my face and I didn't realise someone else was in the presence. I looked up and saw Justin standing there with a concerned look on his face and a apple and water in his hands. I quickly wiped my tears and hoped he hadn't been in here long, he opened his mouth to speak but I quickly cut him off "how long have you been here?" He looked taken back by my comment but replied confidently "long enough to know something is bothering you enough to make you cry." I didn't know how to answer this so I just lied like I do everyone acts concerned about me or asks if I'm okay "I'm okay" he looked very unconvinced "yes sure because you were crying because your so happy down here, look I'm sorry for leaving you I only went to get a drink"

JUSTIN'S POV:

I feel terrible for leaving her down here now, did she think I was going to leave her to die or something? After my comment she just looked down and avoided any eye contact. I sat down next to her and have her the water and apple she still didn't look at me she just muttered a thank you and kept her head down. I felt the need to break the awkward silence so I did, "look I don't expect you too open up to me completely, why would you? But I also want you to know you will be staying with me for a while and I'm always here to talk, okay?" She just shook her jai's and chuckled bitterly them asked me some questions I didn't expect "do you know what it feels like to be completely alone Justin? To have no one? Nothing? Apart from a sharp piece of metal? To have no one to comfort you when your feeling emotional pain? To have to rely on that sharp piece of metal?" The only thing I was focused on was what did she mean sharp piece if metal? Then I clicked she self harms! But why she's so beautiful and acts so confident I opened my mouth and the first thing that came out was "where?"then she lifted up her dress to just below her boobs and and wiped away some make up and about 10-15 scars were shown and that was only in one place and some looked fresher than others. I done what any Caron person would do in this situation I bent down and started to place kisses along every scar she flinched at my touch and said "Justin what are you doing" once I had finished I sat back up and grabbed her face so she would look at me and I spoke "your beautiful then I planted one final kiss on her forehead and pulled her into my embrace and held her like she meant something, because even tho I have only just met this girl she does mean something to me I just don't know what?

YOUR POV:

I'm in complete shock about two things the first thing being about why I just told him all the stuff I told him I mean I don't really tell anyone anything and I've only met the boy recently! And the second thing I am In shock about is how understanding he was of my self harm I mean who thought 'bad boy' over here could actually care and be able to do a nice gesture for someone. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't realise he was looking at me like he was waiting for a response, I looked at him and quickly looked away then he asked something I didn't want to answer "why?" I didn't want to newer him because I hardly know him but something inside was telling me I had to and that I could trust him. I thought about telling him for a moment longer and then her asked again whilst running my back "why YN?" I took a deep breath before replying "in a weird way the physical pain I cause my self makes me forget about the emotional pain caused by others." He nodded as if to say continue so I did "I have no one, no one to laugh with no one to cry with no one to make me happy, no one to comfort me when I'm sad and the sad reality of it all is I have never had anyone."

If anyone struggles with self harm or feeling alone I understand and I am always here! You may not know me personally but u will always be here for you.

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-The Invisible Belieber