Regret

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You didn't love her.

You just used her for personal status.

You used a lame excuse to leave her.

"It's not you, it's me."

You weren't aware of the pain she felt

Let alone her cuts on her arms

They bled out "notice me"

You were the one hope she had

She thought she had hope after her last broken heart
But no, you didn't love her.

You told her you you loved her only to get something out of it.

When you got what you wanted, you left for the night

You ignored her days at a time

while she thought she did something wrong.

She would cut and cut while you were out with other girls.

You were the reason for her self-harm.

She never thought that you would be.

She never thought that the hope she had in you would turn into hatred and hurt.

She always wore a smile around you

You didn't notice the cuts and scars on her wrists

You never asked if she was okay

You never truly loved her

You never knew about the many times she's tried to kill her self.

She was done.

She realized that you never loved her.

She cried over a piece of notebook paper while writing a final note:
"I never belonged here. I try again and again to be good enough for you, but it isn't enough to feed your selfish greed. I always wore a smile saying to myself 'I'll get better... I know I will.' But there was another voice inside my head screaming, 'no, I can't! I can't! I can't get better!' I try to find hope. You were my hope. You told me you loved me only to get what you wanted. My body. You never saw the tears I left on my pillow on the left side of the bed. You never asked me if I was okay. If you ever did, I'd reply 'I'm fine.' You would automatically assume that I'm 'fine' well I'm not fine. I'm so very far from FINE. I'll leave here... goodbye. This is a cold, cruel world. I don't know what I did to deserve to live.

She stood upon a chair and tied a knot with her noose above the chair

She slipped her neck into the hole of the noose

She tightened the knot

Kicked the chair down

And as she breathed her last few breaths she thought "thank you, to the people who actually cared."

She slowly closed her eyelids as her soul slipped away from her body

Miles and miles away from this cruel world

She was at peace

Her mother walks in hours after

She immediately runs to untie the noose's tight knot

Her daughters lifeless body drops to the floor

As her mother cries over her, the girl is looking down on her

Wishing she hadn't have done what she did

She saw how much a person cared about her..

She immediately felt the worst kind of feeling

Regret






On her gravestone, she had the words written : here lies a girl that took her life by a noose
All she wanted was to be loved.
She wanted a hope that could make her happy.
A person failed to do so.

An amazing daughter
A friend to many
A sweet and all around great girl






Suicide is permanent.
You can get through whatever it is you're going through.
It's only temporary.

Also remember that you ARE important
You ARE loved by someone
You ARE worth so much
You ARE so beautiful/handsome
You ARE enough
You ARE you.
That is definitely enough to me.

Suicide isn't a joke.
DON'T do it.

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⏰ Last updated: Feb 26, 2017 ⏰

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