Fallen But Unwithered

(24) Heading for the new beginning!!!

A/N:
This is finally Plexi's POV after so long. Hope you enjoy reading.

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'Move on. It's just a bad chapter in the past. But don't close the book. All you have to do is just be curious for what is to happen next and turn the pages'

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Plexi's POV

I don't know how it really began. It was just like a hustle of wind that blew past me. I didn't even get the time to realize and that left me shattered so badly, that I have been looking myself in the mirror, cursing and getting lost. I know it is all because of me. It is because of me.

I see my dreadful face in the mirror. There are grey bags under my eyes. My hair is disgustingly tangled. I can't remember when I last combed it. Some black heads have started living on the tip of my nose and my eyebrows look like that of a bear.

I open the tap and splash the cold water on my face. It is cold, icy cold, sending shivers to my body. But less than, the shiver I get every night. Every night while I sleep, I see the same thing, my Ronny. He got shot right in front of my eyes and I could do nothing. Just act like a mad woman after his life was taken away by death.
Tammy was right. I am the killer. I killed Ronny. What if I had not protested against Quiver?? He was just trying to rape me. If I had not bit Quiver's ears and let him harass me for a moment, Ronny would be here, with me. And Thea would be here too. I am a coward, a bitch!! I couldn't even satisfy my love a single time.

I can see tears dribbling down my cheeks. My eyes are red and my nose has started turning pink. I hate myself.

I quickly wipe of the tears and go towards the room. I am staying at Nikkyi's, becoming a burden. I do nothing and just stay the whole day staring out of the window.

I bring my legs closer to my chest and place my head on my knees.

".....I understand it was hard, but you cannot make it a hurdle for your future... Life can be a bitch, but you should be a hero who can give it a challenge....."

Maybe Nikkyi was right. Everybody has to go through bad times. The difference is just that I had the worst time. I cannot just keep on remembering him and do nothing.
I have to be strong. I have to face the world and I have to establish myself. Ronny wouldn't want to see me being pathetic, would he??

I get up and get my coat. I wear my boots and go out into the cold, chilling air. The air past swift my face tending to sweep away the frustrations, the sadness. But the grief I hold, couldn't be removed, couldn't vanish so easily. I had to work for it.

I lock the doors and head towards the police station. I go inside and see the cop who had questioned me about the incident that day at Quiver's penthouse.

"Has anything been found out about Quiver?" I ask him as soon as I sit opposite his chair.

"Not yet. We heard that he left for Melbourne. The cops have been informed there." He says seriously.

I nod my head in response. I think about that bastard and a sudden anger drips within me.

"Okay, then. I hope you catch him soon."

"Yeah. We'll try our best."

I prepare myself to move out of the station. As I reach halfway towards the door, I heard someone yelling.

"..Miss Greene.."

I turn around to see the same inspector summoning me. I then wait for him to speak.

"It feels really good to see you recovered. Hope you do better." He says with a assuring smile.

I widen my lips in a smile and answer back,
"I too hope so.."

I walk out of the station and move towards the bus station. I made my way towards the park where Ronny always came. But, today I didn't have Ronny, I didn't feel extremely sad either. I was sad but I know my Ronny will always be by my side, in every obstacles, in every pain... He will be there.

I get off the bus and walk slowly towards the river. I imagine him to be there throwing pebbles in the river, like the day he first kissed me.

I gently go there and sit on the bank, pretending to be right next to him. I close my eyes and suddenly a beautiful, familiar blow of wind hits my face. Not the cold, drizzling one, but the one that would make me smile, give me happiness.... bind me and Ronny..together.

Hey baby. How have you been??
I had lost my control. I'm sorry... sorry for thinking that you left me alone. I know you won't, I love you.

See this, Tammy just left his mind somewhere. He is angry with me, but I know he is just saying. Isn't he??

And yes, how's Thea. Tell her to take her medicines in time. And you too, don't just watch tv and stay. Eat something too.

Anyways, love you. I'll come to see you everyday.

And with that I lie on the grass and breathe in the new, beautiful air.

After a few minutes, I get up head towards Nikkyi's apartment. I pull my coat closer to my chest and heave a sigh. I walk a few steps and then I hear someone calling out my name.

"Plex...Plex."
I turned around to see who it was and found Gay panting and running towards me.

Why in the hell is she in such a hurry??

She comes closer and pats on my head.
"Stupid.. I thought... I thought you... ah leave it!!" She said and then just pulled me for a hug.

I didn't know what came up to her but I knew she loved me, a lot. And so did others..

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A/N:

This is somewhat like the continuation of the previous chapter so I just updated it together.

And, if you really noticed the first paragraph is from the very first chapter of ENOUGH TO ENDURE. Actually, the whole thing till here was just the summary of what really happened in Plexi's life and how much pain she went through. And, the real story begins now!!! Yippee!!

I know this story is going to be real long and I hope you get the actual theme. The concept is different, right??

Hope you enjoy reading...and vote, comment and share.
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