Perfectly broken

04 Never truly happy

Eleanor's POV

Why were you talking to Klaus?- Elena asked

We are friends- I said sitting on the couch next to Caroline

You can't be friends with him- she said- he is a monster

Listen Elena- I said- I get that my brother loves you and all,but never ever tell me what I can do and what I can't. And yes, he did terrible things but don't we all. For example Stefan and Damon? They did some horrible things but yet you forgive them.

There is a deference between them and Klaus- Caroline said trying to defend Elena

Really?- I said laughing- No there isn't.  They aren't any better then Klaus.

Klaus killed my aunt, my parents and hurt a lot of people I cared about!- Elena said tears running down her cheeks before getting up and leaving

Elena wait- Caroline said before getting up and going after her

What did you do to Elena? Why is she crying?- Stefan said

What did you say?- Damon said with cold look in his eyes

She was telling me who I can't i be friends and I told her that she can't do that- I said- I was defending Klaus

You are friends with Klaus- Stefan said

You can't be friends with Klaus- Damon said- he killed many people, hurt many, he tried to kill Elena.

Elena, again with the doppelganger- I said rolling my eyes

She was there when I needed her. She was there when you weren't. I love her. I can't leave without her.- Damon said- and what did you do for me and Stefan? You walked away when we needed you the most. You can't understand what I feel for her, you are incapable of love, you can never be happy so you try to destroy everything ......

I am leaving- I said with tears in my eyes and vamp speed upstairs

Lenny- Stefan said walking in my room

Stef please don't- I said tears running down my cheeks

He didn't mean it- he said trying to stop me from packing my things and leaving

Oh he mean it- I said zipping my suitcase-  and I didn't walk away from you two. I just wanted you to know I had a reason for walking away.

I know- he said hugging me and helping me with my suitcase- are you going back in LA?

No I am going in a hotel and tomorrow am going to see some houses. I am planning to stay.

Than I am going to see you around.

I love you, little bro- I said hugging him

I love you to the moon and back- he said

I got in and started the car but half way the car suddenly stopped.

Great, just great- I said getting out of the car and trying to figure out what the problem is.

Need any help Eleanor?- I heard a familiar voice behind me

Nope- I said looking behind me with a small smile- i know my car

It's a nice car- Klaus said smiling- So what are you doing out this late?

Going to the nearest hotel- I said while I was fixing my car

Hotel? May I ask why aren't you staying with your brothers?

We got into a fight and I decided to leave- I said closing the hood- history is repeating

Ah the doppelganger- he said smirking

Yep the bitch thinks she can boss everyone around- I said smirking- she still hasn't met Eleanor Salvatore

If it makes you feel better I am team Eleanor- he said smirking

Good choice- I said smiling before opening the car door

I will see you around- Klaus said before returning to his car.

I just smiled and got into the car. I drove to the nearest hotel and compelled myself a room. I tried not to think about the things that Damon said but I couldn't. I just couldn't. What if he was right? I shouldn't have walked away from them when we turned, but I couldn't stay either. Damon hated me for telling Giuseppe that Katherine was a vampire. But back than I thought that was the best I could do for my brothers. I hated her for ruining the bond my brothers and I had. I hated her for playing with my brothers hearts and for turning them against me. I just wanted my brothers back, I wanted a happy family, was that too much to ask?
Maybe it was . Maybe I didn't deserve to be ever happy. Maybe I will never be truly happy. Whenever I had something or someone that made me happy I just pushed them away. I never let myself get attached to someone because I learnt did everyone leaves on some point in my life.

My thoughts were interrupted by someone knocking on my door. I opened the door only to see Lily standing there.

You gotta be kidding me- I whispered

Eleanor I heard you and your brother got into a fight. I came here to see if you are OK.

Since when do you care?- I asked

Eleanor I know I wasn't there when you needed me but please let me be here for you now.

I learned how to deal with problems now, thanks for the concern but I don't need anyone now- I said giving her a fake smile

When are you going to forgive me?

Never sounds good with me.- I said

Liked or not, I will never stop being your mother and you will never stop being my daughter. I will always be there for you when you need me- she said before walking away.