Nobody know how I feel!

who I love

I loved you with all my heart and now that you are gone. I have to find myself to see the true me. We will be again one day but not now. I feel in love with you ones and still in love with. But I cant get you out of my mind. You are they only one that I care about in my whole life. I lost you because I didn't pull you back to me. It hurt me when you said goodbye. Goodbye means forever to me. I lost you right there when you said that. I know that you did not when me but now I know you do. But it is to later for us to be. We can friends for life. I dont when to lose you in my life but i did the first time and the second time but not this time even if you push me away I will pull you back. I miss how we talk about everything together and now my life is mess up with out you but i did not tell you or anyone about it. So now i am tell you and the world that i am in love with you from the start and always will. I love you and another but I am all mess up so I dont know what to think. When i see you in the hallways I feel something for you but with that other person to but I will never now anymore. I just have to think and think to I find the right answer. In life with everything that is going on. I hope that we will talk again. I miss you with all my heart and I met steal love you but I will ever now. I hope one day everything goes back the way I when it to. So I can find myself with you. But I know that you when to be with me. But all I do is cry with out you by my side but also I think of the other all at ones. What should I do if I cant find who I when to be with. I just think of what I would do with everything in my life if i am mess up or if i just need to find the path that I need to be on to find who I when to be. It hurts me not seeing you next me to but another. What am I so post to do if I cant find myself before I can find you to. I love you from day one but I did not tell anyone anything anymore about us or if there is even a us anymore I will never now if you dont read this will I or if you tell me how you really fell about me. If that happens i will be really happy if life will bring us together again. 

THERE IS MORE TO THIS STORY WHO I LOVE BUT I WILL START A BOOK SOON ABOUT IT.