ˢⁱᶜᵏ ʷⁱᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘ { ᵐᵃʳᶜᵒ | ¹ }

Chapter 4:Cruel World

(A/N:Okay so there's a small warning for this chapter. It heavily hints things...bad things. And when I say that, I mean rape. Also this is carrying on from last chapter)

Kira pov

"Good night, senpai!" Some junior nurses chorus as I leave, I glance back at them, and smile weakly, "Good job today. Make sure you guys get plenty of rest." I responded. They nod, "We will, Miss! Make sure you get plenty of rest as well!" They chime before they skip off to carry on with whatever they were doing. While their back was turned, I shot them a scowl, and turned away.

'Lucky bastards. I'd give anything to be in your guys shoes..that place called home isn't even my safe haven anymore.'

I had just finished my shift for the day, and I was now supposed to go home. But for multiple reasons, I just wanted to live here instead of the place that Josiah & I share. We lived in a run down side of town, thats not too far away from the hospital. Our house was in a good condition (though it's definitely due for a renovation), but its just the other person thats living in it with me is what makes it feel like a prison cell. My whole life has been a prison cell actually. Because of how he is, Josiah never lets me go out, unless its work related, or because I'm spending time with Itami (which is so rare nowadays). Compared to other people, my world isn't so big. My world consisted of the hospital, the house, grocery store, and if I'm lucky, Itami's place. Apart from those places, I've never been out & about, or gone for a girls' night out.

So all in all, I hate this world I live in, and Josiah makes me wish I weren't ever alive.

I dreaded every step I took towards my car. With each step, I was screaming at myself to just stop, but I couldn't. Or more like, I wouldn't. I really had no choice. If I was home too late, then Josiah would kill me, then resurrect me just so that he can hurt me even more. Even though its scientifically impossible for that to ever happen, Josiah will find a way. He always does.

"Kira?"

I stop in my tracks upon recognizing the voice that called out to me. I look inside Marco's room, and find him staring at me. "Yes?" I reply. "I'm sorry for asking about what happened, yoi. I should've thought that it would've been personal, yoi." he spoke. I tense up, "What makes you say that?" I ask. Marco then blushed, "I-I mean...after all, that was your boyfriend who was calling you right, yoi? W-What ever sexual thing you guys are doing...thats between you two, yoi."

'Oh if only you knew, foolish man.'

I turn to him, and acted bashful, "T-Thats okay! B-But anyway, you get plenty of rest! I'll be with you to see you off tomorrow. Okay?" I promised. Marco sent a heartwarming smile my way, "I'll see you tomorrow then, yoi?" he asked. I nod, "Yes! Sleep well." I started to walk off when I heard him say the same thing.

'Marco, I'd much rather have your company that Josiah's. You're someone I don't mind talking to.'

I eventually dragged my feet out to my car, the only place where I feel safest apart from the hospital. I started the car up, and drove out of the staff car park. As I drove, my music started playing. The first song that came on, was 'Cancer' by My Chemical Romance. Most people prefer the Twenty Øne pilots cover, but I like the original better. The beautiful voice of Gerard Way & his emotional lyrics drizzled into my ears like hot fudge sauce, and warmed my heart & soul. It momentarily made me smile, but not for long when I eventually make it back to the house. As I turn off the car, I take note of my surroundings. I see that only one light was on, and that was Josiah's room. I got out of the car, and stared at his window, some small tears escaping.

'Welcome to hell.'

I swallowed my fears, and walked inside the house. I locked the door behind me, and take my shoes off. "I'm home." I yell out, putting my keys in the key bowl. "Come on up, lady." Josiah slurs out from upstairs. Fear pangs into me. I knew that tone, and if he ever spoke that way, it means that he is drunk. He's at his worst when he's drunk or high. And if he's drunk right now..then that means that tonight is going to be one of the worst nights of my life. I forced myself upstairs, and knocked on his door, "May I please come in?"

'There's a window right next to you, jump out of it while you still can. Its high, and it'll be quick.'

Josiah opens the door, and he stands there with no clothes on whatsoever. I ignore his pale body, and stare at his face. My heart was drumming now. I wouldn't be surprised if either Josiah rips it out, or if my heart jumps out of my body & is then crushed by Josiah. I was terrified. If he was naked, and gave me that call...then that must mean that-

'He wants to fuck me...oh god no.'

Josiah stared at me predatorily, he loops a arm around my waist, and he pushes me inside. "Hows work, my darling?" he questioned, already ripping things off me. I avert my eyes, "Alright..."

'He never asks me that question, ever.'

He hums, "You've been so good lately, like a good little bitch." His words pang my heart. Already I was left in only my underwear. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to cry. More importantly, I wanted to die. I covered my eyes as he removes my bra. Tears threatened to spill as I felt cold clammy hands on my skin. As much as I wanted to push him away, he's taken all obligation away from me to say no. In fact, I'm not allowed to say it if it regards him. I let out a shaky breath as he takes my hands away, and pushes me to his bed behind me. His face was red, and his eyes seemed lost in the drunken fog. He clawed my panties away, and it was already in.

Marco pov

I laid awake, my eyes glued to the ceiling. All my thoughts were towards Kira. Sweet, sweet Kira.

'I really wish I could talk to her more, yoi. I want to know more about her, what her life is like, anything really, yoi. I wonder if she has any friends...'

"Maybe...I should get her number, yoi." I said aloud.

'And then I'll be able to talk to her more, after all, I feel like I owe her something or rather, yoi.'

And with that, I fell in a pitch blackness of sleep.

Third pov

Kira clawed at the bed sheets. Never has Josiah been this rough on her before. Usually he's rough...but never this rough. She wanted to scream, and cry, but Josiah had put a gag over her mouth so that she wouldn't make too much noise. Her teeth harshly bit down on the gag to suppress any moans that tried to escape. Her tears were becoming pools as Kira felt his hands on her endowed body. Unwillingly, her body tingled, and the natural orgasms came from both people.

'Kill me.'

Kira fell onto the bed, her body aching & her throat burning. Josiah removed the gag, allowing Kira to breath a bit more. He stared down at her as he panted heavily. His hand trailed up her body, to her sweaty face. He brushed away some hair that hid her face, and smiled sinisterly. "Crawl to bed." he hissed.

'I don't think...I even have the strength anymore.'

Kira got off the bed, and got on her hands & knees. She started to crawl out of the room, but her legs & arms were so shaky, that she was having trouble with moving her body. It was then that when she made it to her room, and closed the door, she collapsed onto the floor. More tears streamed out of her eyes. That was so humiliating. The shame burnt her the same way her Mother once burnt her back when she was younger.

'Back when....I had those demons in my childhood. I made them suffer.'

(A/N:NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE A FLASHBACK ABOUT KIRA'S CHILDHOOD)