My last moments

Alex

I woke up and put a black panic at the disco T shirt on and put black ripped jeans on with my black converse. Then went to the bathroom to straighten my hair and put on black eye liner and black lipstick and mascara and black eye shadow and did all of my other morning routine to get ready for college. I got my car keys and got in my car  (sometime I drive to the college)  I got out of my car and walked into the school and went to my normal classes 3 hours later I went to lunch and they were have tacos ew im a vegetarian so I ate a salad instead as I sat down with my best friend Bailey all of the jocks at the table next to us started laughing. I wondered why then relized I didn't put a sweater on to cover up my cuts from the night before.

I ran to the bathroom and I barely ate any of my food and started crying Bailey came in the bathroom and said Dezray. I said yeah? She said its gonna be ok. I said no its not. She kept saying it and we just stood there our backs to back on the same stall door for the rest of the lunch  period. After lunch I skipped English and went to my car and grabbed my keys out of my back pocket and went home. when I got home Alex seen that I was crying and asked me what was wrong. I said nothing. He said you are a horrible lier Dezray I have known you to long to know your not ok so lets go get dinner and talk about it as long as you dont think this is a date and I said nope just friends I said ok. As I drove to Olive Garden I was singing to the radio of course when we got there we went and sat down and ordered. After we joked around for awhile he seen the cuts on my arms and said you cut? I said yeah. He said I used to. I said really but your a football player. He aid yeah.. Even though im not aloud to have cuts on my arms because of football I cut my legs. I said oh.

After we ate we went home and I said I had fun tonight.  He said me to. I said you know next semester im  gonna rent out a dorm  and I wont be living here anymore but I will be close by he pulled out his phone and said well then let me give you my number so we can talk more often. I said ok. He put his number in my phone and we talked a lot that week. Its Halloween now and im being a dark angel and Alex is being Donald Trump as a joke were going with a group of his friends  witch I was fine with. I went outside and met him to talk about about where we were going to go for trick or treating and he said im going for an hour if that I said same so went trick or treating and got home and I took off my makeup and my costume. I didn't eat because I wasn't hungry that night I put my pajamas on and laid down.

Later that night I woke up to another fucking headache and It hurt like hell so I went downstairs to get advil and soy milk to wash it down and then went back to sleep. woke up in the morning got ready for my classes except I remember to put a sweater on because I cut two nights ago and you could still see the marks a little bit and so I went to college and in between classes because I don't have a dorm yet I went to my locker. All of a sudden all of these boys started to surround me by my locker to where  I had no where to go and said hey you emo bitch why do you cut oh yeah that's right you want to kill yourself so we will help you die. They started punching my face and I fell to the ground while blood dripped out of my nose a tear ran down my face while they kicked my stomach forcingly over and over again forcing me to throw up on their shoes and then they kicked me harder and finally Bailey seen what was happening and stopped them by punching them in the the face she is very strong.... I got up with help from Bailey and left the college and the next few days it continued I kept getting beat up so I finally was fed up and went to the gym.

It was a week after Halloween I went in there suspicious because there was a ton of boys and girls fighting each other I walked in with my gym bag and found the locker room got dressed and put my hair in a ponytail and let my bangs cover one of my bruised eyes I found a trainer talked to him and he started helping me learn self defense. When I went to school the next day after training my muscles hurt so bad I mean I did train for 4 hours yeah im so serious about these stupid bullies that keep judging me. After class they surrounded me again and called me the stupid names again this time when cam at me I threw a punches back and soon they were all bloody I still needed training I didn't hit hard enough the next day Alex went with me and we trained together for an hour and a half when we were driving back I said um Alex. He said yeah? I said um im  gonna be renting out a dorm soon and I can choose my roommate and weven though your not in college I asked if you could be my roommate even though your in 12th grade and they said yes! He paused for a minute and said well I will have to ask but my answer is yes.