With crying eyes and open arms - Phan

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These past few days have been confusing. Phil hasn't hurt me. In fact, he's been defending me. Peter tried to hurt me but Phil jumped in. He told Peter to leave me alone from now on. I don't understand why he's so happy to defend me now that he knows about my parents. He said something about going through the same thing as me. Did his parents do what mine did?

"Phil... I think we need to talk," I say during a lesson in which Phil is sitting beside me. "Yeah well, I don't think we do so leave it," he snaps. I ignore him though. "No Phil. You told me something. I didn't understand. I want to know Phil," I reply. He turns to me, eyes full of sadness, hatred and anger. "Fine. I'll tell you. Meet me by the fountain," he says as he turns away from me.

***

I see Phil walking towards me. I'm sitting on a small wall by the fountain.

"You really want to know Dan?" he asks me quietly. I nod. Of course I do. Maybe this is the reason he bully's people.

"My parents. Well my mum... They were young when I was born. My dad didn't stick around. He left my mum to raise me by herself. She couldn't cope Dan. She killed herself and left me behind. I nearly died. I was left alone for a whole day until a neighbour heard me screaming... So there you go," he sighs.

I look up at him.

"You blame yourself, don't you?" I say finally. Phil nods slightly and I see him wipe away a tear that had escaped his eye. "She wouldn't have died if I wasn't here. All I do is bring misery to people," he says.

"No Phil. You weren't to blame for what happened to your mum. And it's ok. I forgive you for what you've done... You've made everything up to me by defending me lately," I say to him. He nods slightly and looks at me.

"I'm still so sorry Dan. I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt. But you most of all," he smiles weakly.

Something inside me is urging me to hug him. I can't seem to control my body. I throw myself at him and hug him tightly.

"It's ok Phil. I forgive you," I say into his ear.

He leans back and smiles at me. I never knew he could be so beautiful. I always hated his smile before because it would always be a sick and twisted one whilst he was hurting me. But now his smile is beautiful and pure.

"Well I guess we'd better get back to lessons," Phil says quickly. I shake my head at him. "Lest just skip," I say excitedly. Phil shrugs and sits back down.

"So what about you?" he asks quietly.

"My parents? Quite a long story actually," I sigh.
"Tell me..." Phil replies. I nod and take a deep breath. Here goes.

"My mum and dad raised me for 13 years. Then one day they changed. They said they couldn't deal with anything anymore. I saw a lot of things that day Phil. Things I want to forget. Then the next thing I know, I'm being taken into a care home with a woman, Maria and her husband, Stanley. They introduced me to their son, Billy-" I begin to say.

"Billy that comes to this school?" Phil cuts in. I nod and look at him. "He never told me," Phil frowns.

"We both agreed to not telling anyone," I reply almost instantly. Phil nods and looks at me.

"Maria and Stanley... Do they know about everything in school?" Phil asks me. I shake my head. "I don't really tell them much..." I say.

Phil smiles at me awkwardly. I can't help but feel close to him. He told me about his mum. I've told him about my parents. We know each other's secrets now. Will he use them against me? Will he tell everyone?

"I'm adopted," he says finally. I look at him, slightly shocked. "My mum and dad told me from a young age. It just kinda hurts y'know. It's selfish our parents could just happily leave behind their child," Phil says, voice slightly angered but more pained. I nod. I know exactly how he feels. It makes me angry that my mum and Dad could just happily leave me by myself.

"Your dad? You said he left your mum to raise you alone... Do you know if he's still alive?" I ask. Phil shakes his head. "No idea. I don't really care if I'm honest... I'm too angry at him," Phil replies. I nod awkwardly. I don't know what to say to him anymore.

***

"Dan... Lessons are finished now. Let's pretend this never happened eh? Still enemies," Phil smiles at me. "You betcha," I laugh back.

A/n: sorry for the late update I was kinda busy... Anyways, here you go!!!