With crying eyes and open arms - Phan

f o u r t e e n

~ 2 months later ~

>><<

Phil P.O.V

It's been just over two months since the treehouse accident and if I'm honest, Dan and I are closer than ever.

I think he may even class me as a friend now. Which is great and all, I just wish we were more. Kinda pushing things, huh? I'm lucky he even let me be his friend.

But I'm doing what I'd promised myself I'd do.

And I'm going to keep doing that.

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Dan P.O.V

Phil and I are 'friends' now... I sound like we're not...

I just have a hard time fully trusting him. Yes, he ditched all of his friends for me. Yes, he got beaten up a few times for me... I know it sounds stupid, I just can't help it.

Whilst I really like him, I'm also really mad at him. Sometimes I even feel like I still hate him...

I guess it's not him I hate though... It's the old him. So why am I finding it so hard to except the new him? Why can't I let go of what he put me through beforehand? He's made up for his actions... He has.

Maybe it's because I have a feeling he's faking all of this. I feel like he's using me for something. I really hope not. I really want this to be a genuine friendship. But I can't help but doubt it...

I guess since he's become my friend things are easier though. People actually talk to me. I seem to be less of a freak now that I have a friend. Not only do I have a friend though, my friend is Phil Lester. Apparently everyone wants to be friends with him. So I'm 'lucky' as some say.

I guess I am lucky. I went from having a bully, to having a friend... Sometimes I consider him my best friend... Then again, I don't really have any other friends. Only Phil.

I still often wonder why he wants to be friends with me. What's so special about me? Neither of us have our parents? We both lost people we love? No, that can't be it.

I try to ask him all the time but he always answers "you're a great guy Dan, why wouldn't I want to be friends with you?"

Maybe because for a long time, you acted as though you hated me. Tormented me. Made me feel like I was worthless.

But I've forgiven you for that. So why can't I let go?

A/n:
Last time I said I'd make this more understandable...
I feel like I've just made the whole thing even more confusing... I'm sorry.
It will make sense at some point... I promise!!
Anyways, here you go!!
Gooooodbye!!