My hero

These Four Walls and Me

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Y/n POV

Dear diary, 

Its been a month without him. I felt like my life has lost all meaning. God everyday it's just harder and harder. People say it gets easier as time past but im now learning thats no where near true. I haven't spoken to anyway ever since i received the news, of course my sister does pop up visits to make sure i haven't gone completely mad or killed myself. Though i feel like grabbing a gun and placing it to my temple is the easier solution its not. I know its not what grant would've wanted for me. But just remembering him, his laugh, his smile, his silly facial expressions kills me slowly. I sometimes just sit in my room staring at the door hoping he would just walk through it and grab me in a tight hug and spin my around. But i now have to get used to this new nightmare called reality. 

Love, Y/n

I placed my diary on my nightstand. I got off my bed and walked into me and grant walk in closet. His scent entering my nostrils and filling my head making me a little light headed. He was like my drug i was so addicted to him everything about him. I looked and saw his jacket. I teared up at the sight of it i remember on our first date he offered me it when i got cold because we went to the beach. I went and put it on. I hugged myself inhaling his scent. A tear rolling down my cheek. I sat on the floor and tears made its way down my eyes and dripped into the fabrics of his jacket. 

Y/n: (mumbles) stop stop stop 

I wiped my eyes and blinked repeatedly i cant cry. But its impossible for me not to cry when the love of my life is gone. Just one careless pull of a trigger took everything from me. Took my best friend all the way to my fiancé. I heard the doorbell ring and i sighed as i got up. I went to answer the door. I knew it was my sister so i just unlocked the door and turned around going back into my room. I laid down on my bed closing my eyes hearing my sister walk in my room. I felt her hand on my shoulder. Then i felt a pair of lips kiss my neck. I instantly got up eyes scanning the person. And as soon as i saw the person face a breath taking sob came out of my mouth echoing throughout the room. I covered my mouth tears forming in my eyes. I had to be dreaming i had to be. There stood grant fine and all. 

Y/n: this has to be a dream 

Grant: y/n babygirl i love you soo much but you cant keep doing this to yourself because of what happened to me 

Y/n: i cant do this grant i j-just cant

I stood from my bed only to get weak and fall to my knees. Grant knelt down in front of me taking my hand in his hand he leaned down kissing it. When he looked back up at me a tear rolled down his cheek. I reached out and wiped it away. 

Grant: promise me you'll be ok 

Y/n: noo

I shook my head crying. 

He squeezed my hand a little. 

Grant: (whisper) promise me princess

Y/n: (whisper) i pr-promise 

He gently grabbed my face kissing my lips. It felt so real and i felt a whole wave of electric shiver go down my spine. When i pulled away he wasnt there anymore. He was gone.

Even if you finish reading before the song is over listen to the rest of the song. Just typing this imagine made me want to cry.