It should have been me

Overhung

"Bring on the shackles, Bring on the pain"

"Logan.... your smashed. Lighten up man it's not the worst thing that could happen."

Colin and Finn showed up to "celebrate" my last night as a free man.

"Colin lighten up..."

"Logan... you know better than I do that if you show up to the wedding hung over and ruin your lovely brides photos that she will not only have your head, but will make the rest of your life miserable."

"Life is already miserable."

"Yeah mate, Colin is right.... it could be so much worse and you know it. I'm not one to spoil a good time but maybe you should eat something first."

I know Finn means well but he can nag better than my mom sometimes. I'm feeling good... better than good, I'm great. I haven't had a night with the guys since our last hoorah in New Hampshire. Ah man..... last thing I need to do is think about her. It's not like anything is different. All I ever do is think of her. Her smile, Martha's Vineyard , her laugh, Yale... she was perfection designed by Michelangelo himself.... I remember how her eyes lit up when we visited the Sistine chapel. Nobody is as smart as she is. Nobody has a love for art and books like her. She always had a comment or side remark about the theme of the moment. She is incredible. She has always been the air that I breath and I let her go.

"Now or never.... what was I thinking" I started to hysterically mumble.

"Hey Colin did you hear what he said?"

"Yeah... I think he's talking about mother again."

"I pushed her away. I gave her an ultimatum. If it weren't for me she would be here and WE would be the ones getting married..." he trailed off getting louder the more alcohol he consumed.

"Why does the world hate me?" Finn and Colin look at each other unsure of what to say.

"Seriously Colin, Finn, why is it that I'm not allowed to be happy? Was it written in the stars?"

"Aww come on mate... your allowed to be happy, you just have to make the best out of your situation."

"She's having my baby!" He angrily shouts to the wind. "She's having my baby and I have to marry some gold digging hore to create some power couple all so that I can become my dad and be miserable like him." I know that she's not really like that but I don't care. It's nice to paint someone the villain and with her and the dark lord plotting they fit the bill.

"Why does the world hate me? The world was such a happy place with her in my life." He hangs his head and says: " What was I thinking..." while sinking into a lower form of alcohol induced depression.

"Logan.... look at me!" Colin grabs my face and takes my latest shot for himself. "Logan... Rory is the past. You are getting married tomorrow. Like it or not the second you say "I do" Odette will be your wife!" I don't want to hear this I think to myself

"Stop rolling your eyes and listen to me! Just because you have an arranged marriage doesn't mean you can't be friends with her! It doesn't mean that you have to be your father!"

"Colin stop! I'm doomed that's all there is to it. Rory was my past, is my future! I will make it work! She is having my child ... MY CHILD... and I want to be with them despite what my mother will think despite what Mitchum will say, they can't do anything about that fact!"

"What about Rory?" Finn chimes in.

" Ace... what about her?"