It should have been me

Reflection

Our story starts from the POV of Logan. Sitting at his desk trying to sink in the information that the love of his life Rory Gilmore has announced that she is pregnant with his child.

Sidenote: I do not own any rights to these characters I just thought it would be fun to elaborate on what if....

It's so much information to take in...
Rory... Ace...
So beautiful, so smart, and carrying my child?! How did I get so lucky...
oh wait I didn't.... I have to marry Odette. I have to follow the dynastic plan and I have to do it as my fathers shadow.
Last night Rory actually called me to say she wanted to meet up. I haven't had any hope in my chest since I was with her that night in New Hampshire. Imagine my surprise when I picked up the phone and saw the caller id.
"Ace" ..... nothing but silence
"Ace" ...... did I seriously just get butt dialed?
I was about to hang up when all of a sudden she started to ramble "I'm sorry to bother you Logan I know how busy you are nowadays but I really need to talk to you and I hope that we can meet up because yeah... I need to see you"
"Wait what...."
"I need to see you"
"Alright... is everything ok... do I need to be worried?"
You could feel the tension through the phone. I'm not sure why she is so nervous but it's starting to rub off on me too.
We talked about meeting up at a cafe' down the road, apparently she had flown to London before she made her call.

Looking at my clock I am fifteen minutes early and I can't help think "stop being nervous Huntzberger"
I look outside and there she is, as beautiful as the first day I saw her. I always loved when she wore blue. You could see how nervous she was, pacing back and fourth, giving herself a pep talk no doubt. Hastily she shoves a piece of paper in her pockets and with a smile I think back to her pro/con lists she use to write.
She came through the door at our designated meeting place and saw me sitting in the corner. God how I love when her eyes light up.

How many times have I wished that I could get up the nerve to say "take this life and shove it".
Who did I become? Sure... the money is nice but why can't I do what I want in life? The simple answer... I'm tired. I'm tired of the yelling matches and being a disappointment. Yesterday I could have sworn I heard Mitchum acknowledge he has a son with a half smile. I could have sworn that if he wasn't interrupted with that call he would have said "great job, keep it up".
Why am I kidding myself. My dad doesn't do emotions. Mitchum doesn't care about anything I do as long as I am his puppet and marry Odette.
I chose this life, now I need to stick with it.
Is there any way that I can have her call off the wedding? No she would t do that.
No point sitting here stewing in misery.... Instead I have better things to focus on.
I smile and indicate the chair across from me as she takes a seat.

"Logan, are you still going to marry Odette?"

This again? I thought we went over this. Maybe if she would have stopped me in New Hampshire then I would have gone to her in a heartbeat, but now it's too late. There are things set in motion. For goodness sakes, I getting married in two weeks!!!
Completely frustrated I can't help but wonder where this is headed so I repeat what I said to her last time:

"That's the dynastic plan"

Squirming in her seat she replies "and there is no way to change that?"
"Ace, what do you want? I have no choice I'm in this and there is no way to get out. Im not disappointing my father again. We had our chance. We had our chance and you said no."
"I know I just...." she mutters under her breath....

"What? Rory what do you want? Speak up so I can hear you!" This woman is exasperating. I wish she would just tell me what's on her mind.

"Here goes.... Logan.... I'm pergnat..."
"Your what?"
Loudly she yells "PREGNANT OK..... I'm pregnant... and it's yours"

Pin drops. ... Nothing prepared me for this. I'm overfilled with joy. Ace... my Ace.... wait....
Just as quickly as it came misery took its place. Reality sets in and I remember everything. Odette, my dad.... no. This is horrible. My Ace and our little Ace....
"Are you sure?"
"Logan, I have wracked my brain and come up with many scenarios on how to tell you but yes. I am sure. I took multiple tests at home and confirmed it with my Dr."
I just sit there stunned as if the world has ended and I can see the hurt on her face while she continues;
"I understand your hesitation and I want you to know that not only do I not expect anything from you we don't need anything. I just needed to tell you to your face. Now that is done I am leaving in the morning and I need a nap so I will let you go"

I grab her arm before she can leave and motion towards the chair. "Just give me a second to process"

"I'm getting married. I can't drop everything. I cannot be a father to your children. It won't be allowed. I love you Rory I really do but I can't do this. .... "
The tears form in her eyes. I don't know what she expected. Yes I do... she expected me to be over the moon drop everything and welcome her with open arms. Damn the world and go away with her and we live happily ever after. Our own little fairytale, but guess what that's not going to happen. I have a fiancé I have expectations and responsibilities... I can't just walk away from that.
Watching me internally process she just stands there.
"Logan. I'm ok. We are ok. I won't tell anybody it's yours. For all they know it's the Wookies"
"Do I want to know?" I can't help but smile
"Not important.... Have a great day" and before I can think to stop her she turns around and bolts out of the cafe'.

What should I do? I have so much going on right now. The merger I am suppose to look over for my father, wedding plans (although I would rather be left out of it), and now I have an unplanned pregnancy with my ex. Knowing Rory she won't tell anybody it's mine so I don't have to worry about the media yet. Someone needs to make sure she is taking care of herself. Last I heard she was living with Lorelei and didn't have a job.
Without thinking about it I swipe the cursor on my phone and dial the only person I can think of....

"Finn Morgan.... pick your poison and I'll pick mine"
"Hey Finn I have a ...."
"Logan?!? Hey mate how's the corporate game"
"Not bad man... listen I need a favor"
I can hear the noise in the background and there is no surprise that he is in the bar.
"For you, anything"
"I need you to go by Rory's and check up on her. I have a feeling she won't be in a good mood tonight and this is more than a pint of ice cream can cure."
"Sure , anything for our love! Anything I need to know?"
Yeah, Rory is pregnant and I am the father but I can't tell anyone or be there for her I think to myself. If anyone is going to tell people that she is pregnant then they might as well hear it from the horses mouth.
"We met up today and had a little talk. I don't know what to do man, but it didn't go well and I am the last person she wants to hear from, so I thought I could call you and make sure that she had a friendly face around."
"Like I said mate.... anything for love. Let me high tale it out of here and I will call you with a detailed report of our progress."
Good ol' Finn. I can always count on him when I need him.

Sidenote: I want to thank Mindy Root for proofreading and helping me get started. (Follow her if you want great Finn/Rory fanfic and great Rory/Logan fanfic. Her writing is what got me started 🙂 )
I also want to thank everyone in advance for any comments and or ideas that you might share with me. I love to read what you think so please don't be shy and let the comments come 😊 I am not sure exactly how this story will go but I do know that it will be a fun ride!