It should have been me

Inner Battles

A million miles a minute doesn't even begin to describe how fast my brain is trying to process my furry. I'm standing outside her building and all I can think of is " are you going to stay married to Odette" ....

"ahhhh"

Before I even know that I have moved I punched the wall.... great... now not only am I going through hell in a hand basket but my hand might be busted. Perfect! Why did I even come here? "Because your an idiot" I answer myself. O joy, now I'm going crazy too - icing on the fricken cake.

Deciding that it's better to channel my anger instead of beat myself up I start to obsess about MY Ace and that back stabbing no good dirty rotten so called "best friend" that is trying to replace me. What the hell. Taking her to movies and dates and after dates.

I run my hand over my face and sit in the front seat of my car. I'm about to drive off when I look up. I can see the light on in her place. Why the hell is he still there.... Hell no .... that kangaroo loving asshole better keep his boxing gloves on if he touches her!

I need to calm down. I need to not think. I know the perfect remedy. I NEED SCOTCH!!!!!!!

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That damn sun light ! What the hell... who opened my curtains?! I get up in search of coffee and some Advil. Ok so being a mad drunk is not my thing. I usually drink to have fun or get rid of stress, sometimes both, but I think I went a little overboard last night. Crap my head is pounding. If I close my eyes I feel like I will see a sign that says "Energizer bunny was here. Get use to the pounding of your head because it will keep going and going...." I'm not sure what happened but I know that I did something. First thing I need to do is get ahold of my surroundings. Did I bring anyone home? No (check). Did I drunk dial? No (check)...

I'm about to put my phone down when I see a 1 in the corner of my screen indicating a txt... Now that's weird why would he txt me last night. . . Finn had texted me or I guess by the looks of it I texted him and he replied. Greaaaat..... lets see the damage...

Logan: What the hell do you think your doing? I thought you were my best friend! You know how I feel about her! How could you do this to me?

I guess I could have been more vulgar, but good for me getting it all out in the open.

Finn: I am your friend, and I'm not doing anything with her except being there for her. Don't forget she's my mate, too. She said goodbye to all of us, and I was worried, so I reached out to her.

(No good lying piece of ....) I'm starting to grumble to myself as I am reading each line. Should I be reading all this now? Too much to take in first thing in the morning - the clock says 3:00, and by the looks of the outside I would guess that's in the afternoon so I shake it off and continue reading.

Logan: You had no right, Finn.....

Finn: You don't get to tell me what to do, and it was a damn good thing I was here after that shit you tried to pull!

Logan: Shes mine, Finn..... stay AWAY!

That tells him... Bastard probably won't listen though. He always wanted what's mine! Even in grade school.....

Finn: She's not your property, Mate. And I'm not going after her - we're friends and she needs someone who understands her situation, her past.

Logan: You know what I mean.....

Finn: If you truly love her, then you would want someone who cares to help her through this, and be there for her. Or do you want her jumping into the arms of a stranger?

Damn it I hate when he makes sense, but I still don't trust him. He always has tried to play neutral party, especially when Colin and I get into our tiffs. Screw him and his rationality - damn my head is pounding.

Logan: Your right. I jumped to conclusions and let jealousy take over. I'm just so confused about all of this. I do love her.

Finn: I think your better off leaving her alone for now. And might I suggest some professional help? You really need to talk to someone about this because you can't keep doing this to her. It's not fair to her.

Screw you!!! Professional help!!!!! Huntzbergers don't go to quack shrinks! If you think for one second I'm going to lay on the sidelines while you "try to comfort" her you've got another thing coming! I will fight for her and I will fight hard! Don't worry about Odette because I'm not. She isn't even a factor in this scenario! I want my girl and I will have my girl so piss off!!!

Logan: Thanks. Promise me you'll take good care of her and be there for her. She needs a good friend.

Finn: I will, I promise.

Ok... so now I have riled myself up but at least I know I didn't make too much of an ass of myself last night. I haven't drank that much since the thanksgiving holiday where Rory and I took some time apart. The night before the wedding is a close tie I guess, but man my life is messed up.

My phone chirps once letting me know that a message just came through and when I look at it, I am stunned. What the hell could he want?!?!

Sidenote: As always I want to thank Mindy Root for proofreading and helping me get started. (Follow her if you want great Finn/Rory fanfic and great Rory/Logan fanfic. Her writing is what got me started 🙂 ) This story is modeled after her incredible finnfic "the scarecrow"

I also want to thank my newest helper getting me started again anonymousgg16. She has her own line of wonderful Finn/Rory and Logan/Rory stories (fabulous reading material).

Both writers are incredible on the inside and out. Thank you ladies for being my rocks 😊💕

To my readers - thank you for being so patient. I know it has been a while since I have last written and I am astounded that you still are interested in my story. I will however be taking it slow. I will definitely update more often but not every day. Real life is slowly getting back to normal but we're not at 100% yet.

A.R.