Thoughts Inside My Head(Sophomore Year) Pt 2{COMPLETE}

It's Just Another Day

So, I really wish I didn't have friends who tell everyone this, but, ugh, my birthday is next week. March seventh. To my parents and everyone in my family who remembers, this is a big day because I'm really loved in my family. Honestly, I just don't like my birthday, because that's one of three days that my parents fake their love, and I hate it. Besides, my birthday is just honestly another day, a day the world had the misfortune to have a little shit name Luis join the world of depression and infinitive happiness.

So, my folks and my sis were asking me what I want for my birthday, and they already knew so they were asking me if I still wanted a camera or a phone. Honestly, I have no purpose for a phone, I don't like calling people, and I don't like texting people, yet it's like 66% of my contact with other people. So, no, I don't want a phone for my birthday cause I wouldn't use it, they asked about the camera.

I've been wanting a camera since I was like, eleven? And as the days went on, my really big passion for photography or filmography has been slowly dying, and actually, I really don't care too much for cameras, sure it'd be nice to have a better camera so my videos don't look so crappy, but who the heck watches my videos?

Some Person: But luis! You have 50 subscribers and get like 14 views per video!

Hey, you wanna know what? YOu didn't capitalize my name, plus, I really don't care for my channel, I just post stuff on there and I hate it when people are like, oh, "I can tell you put a lot of effort in your videos!" Hell no. I don't, why? Because nobody likes my videos. They'll just watch it and be like, yeah, I'm gonna say it was good so he- shut up! Just don't watch my videos, I really don't care. I don't monetize my videos, and I really don...ugh.

So, the camera, what I want it for is taking pictures, but I can't drive anywhere, and my parents put a limit on how many times I can hang with my friends every month, and if I go with my friends, it's to hang out with them, not to take pictures.

I really... All I want for my birthday is for no one to acknowledge it, so please, if you know me, don't say happy birthday to me on March 7th, of this year.

I'm sorry.