Forbidden Desires

Chapter 7.

"Are you done crying yet?" Justin asked for the millionth time.

"For now." I mumbled. He sighed.

"Are you hungry? You didn't come to dinner, which I don't blame you for, but you still must be starving." He asked.

"I'm fine." I replied.

"Nichole." He started, but I cut him off before he could say anything else.

"I swear, I'm really not hungry I ate before my father came, just in case something would have happened." I lied. He seemed to be content with that answer, because he stopped bugging me about it. I watched Bella sleep at the end of the bed. I'm surprised he even let her come in the room, but she kinda followed me in, and he wasn't about to do anything that would upset me.

"He's right you know." I said laying my head back on his chest.

"Who is, and about what?" He asked.

"I am weak." I replied.

"No you are not."

"Yes I am though, think about it." I started "I'm an emotional teenager, who's father hates her, and has made that detail known, I freak out after I kill people, and I'm honestly just an embarrassment. I shouldn't even be here." I stated. He pulled my chin up making me look at him. Even though it was dark in the room I could still see his crystal eyes as he spoke.

"You are not weak. No one blames you for the way you act. You're seventeen for gods sake, you are allowed to have those kinds of emotions." He stated I nodded my head not in the mood to argue with him right now. I laid my head back on his chest. We stayed that way for a while enjoying the silence. "You going to school tomorrow?" He asked.

"Probably not." I replied sighing. Not in the mood to deal with school, and my friends either. "You going?" I asked.

"Haven't decided yet." He answered.

"You don't have to stay because of me." I replied he chuckled.

"Oh, I'm well aware of that, but if I don't stay who knows what you would do, and I don't want that on my conscious." He replied.

"But, that's your job, you have to go." I stated.

"You honestly think I need that job?" He asked.

"No, but you could still lose it if you don't go tomorrow.

"Babe why do you think I took that teaching job in the first place?" He questioned. I lifted my head up to look at him.

"You took the teaching job, because of me?" I asked.

"You could put it that way, but yes. Boyd called me a couple months ago, and offered me the opportunity, because he knew that you were still young, and half the stuff that goes on with this job traumatizes you, so they wanted me to keep an eye on you without being so forward about it, but of course you had an episode, and found out who I was, so that kinda ruined the whole down low thing we were hoping for." He replied.

"Do you regret it?" I asked.

"No, obviously not! How could I? I've obviously found an infatuation with you." He said wrapping his arms around me tighter. I breathed in his intoxicating scent letting this moment sink in.

"Hey Justin?" I whispered not even sure if he heard me.

"Yes?" He replied.

"Why did you defend me in front of him?" I asked curious as to what his answer would be. "I mean he is your boss, and clearly he doesn't care about me, so why go through all that trouble?"

"Get some sleep Nichole." He replied without answering. I lifted my head to look at him, but he just put it back down. "You know the reason as well as I do." Was the last thing he said.

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I woke up, and immediately noticed that I was alone in the bed, not even Bella was here anymore. I sighed and decided to get up. I found myself afraid to open the door though. What if he was still here? Even though Justin said he left last night he could have never left, or come back. I decided I wasn't going to be scared anymore, and opened the door. I went to my room, because that's where I left my phone last night. I checked it to see if Justin had left me a message which he didn't, but I honestly didn't expect him to either. I found his contact, and pressed call. It rang for what felt like forever until his voicemail answered instead of him I rolled my eyes, and left him a message.

It was short, and simple, and I knew he would understand. After hanging up my phone I went to find Bella. I found her running around outside with a couple of the younger maids. I let them be, and went downstairs to find something to eat. To my surprise Marisol was still in the kitchen cleaning.

"Mar my father is gone, you may return to your quarters." I informed her she looked at me.

"Thank you miss, I'll just finish up in here, and be on my way." She replied going back to cleaning the rest of the countertop. I shrugged my shoulders, and walked to the fridge. I saw the leftovers from dinner last night, and decided to heat them up. "I am finished miss, are you sure you would like for me to return to my quarters?" Marisol asked breaking me from my daydream.

"Yeah, you know when my father is away you are all free to do whatever you please." I replied.

"Okay, thank you again miss." She said bowing before leaving. I just nodded my head.

"So, this is what you do when your father is away huh? Oh he will be so disappointed when he finds out." The voice I have grown to fear even more so than my father said behind me.