Im losing my appetite. Lack of perseverance.
I don't want to eat, watch a movie, don't want to shopping, don't want to live, don't want to breath.
I'm losing my appetite.
I'm lack of soul. I feel empty. Empty again.
I need shower of energy.
I need to be under pressure for what I deserve. But now I don't want to do anything. I don't want to do nothing
Im no one. I doubt I can be someone better.
I'm desperate. Im full of jealousy. I want to gain without pain but all I feel was pain without any gain.
Even it's hard to breath.
Just so hard
Blank. It's not trust issues as my usual kinda thought. It's brand new feeling. Full of deep hesitancy. Being doubt for nothing. Who is he? Someone I don't know. Why I said yes? Under pressured. How can I rely my life on someone I dunno and someone..........
I feel really unsettled. This feeling make me numb. Frustrating. Even my eyes tired of crying. And my head tired of aching.
Then today, again...
I sleep with heavy burden in my heart
