Umm, so recently I've been really questioning my gender and sexuality and now I think I'm a fluid homosexual FTM transgender, possibly just bi instead of fluid homosexual, and I've been having troubles with this since I live in Utah, a very LDS state and I was raised LDS and most of my friends are religious as well, and one of the few very close-minded friends of mine who is against all LGBTQ+ stuff claiming "Men should marry women and visa versa" and "you are whatever gender you were born as" I've started to get a crush on, and if she new she'd freak and probably hate me, plus I'd have to explain my gender issues as well, and basically understanding myself at all is just a mess. Plus since I was raised LDS and belive the teachings it makes me hate myself a bit because the way I am is against the teachings of the church.
