I woke up to see her lying beside me rolling over I wrapped her in my arms admiring how beautiful she looked asleep. Maybe they all are right maybe I really don't deserve her. Sliding gently out of bed I grabbed my keys and quickly wrote a note and laid it beside her head. The note read:
Jenna,
As much as I'd hate to go, I'm just not good enough for you. I'm bad news just like everyone warned you. I'm so sorry I've caused you so much pain. I hope behind the pain there has been happiness because all I want is to see you happy. I love you Jenna. Hope you slept well. You know where to find me if you need me.
~Your favorite asshole
With a kiss on her forehead I carefully climbed out of her window being very cautious not to wake her parents. Walking over to my house I climbed in my bed and dozed off for a few. Waking up I heard a door slam and someone stomping up the stairs. Oh shit.
"Lukas open this god damn door right now!" Jenna yelled beating on the door
Walking to the door I slowly unlocked it stepping back so she wouldn't hit me with the door when she bursted in. Bursting in my room was a very pissed off Jenna.
"D-didyou get my note..?" I studdered
"Of course I got your pathetic fucking note" she replied
"Sorry.." I sighed
"Hand me your phone" she said holding her hand out
Handing her my phone she put my password in scrolling through my notifications.
"Hmmm Lani. Lani. Lani. Lani. Laniiii. Is this why you don't deserve me Lukas?" She asked throwing my phone against the wall shattering it.
"Yes.." I said tucking my head
Jenna walked up putting her tiny fingers under my chin lifting my eyes up to hers
"If you love me so much Lukas...why do you keep messing with her?" She asked me looking in my eyes for a hint of emotion
"Because Jenna she has this...this fucking hold on me" I began tears filling my eyes
"What do you mean?" She asked
"It's like I can't let her go and fuck I want to so badly for you. I wanna be so good for you but I'm so bad for you. So I stick with the one thing I've became custom to" I cried
"Lukas..don't cry" she said wiping my tears from my face and placing her hands on my chest
"You can't keep hurting me Lukas" she said kissing my forehead
"I know Jenna. I do. I really do and I don't wanna lose you for good. I want you to let me get better. Let me find my own way away from her and when I do..and if you still want me. I wanna try this again. The right way. I'll give you all my passwords. I'll show you off everywhere. I will make sure EVERYONE knows you are mine Jenna" I replied pulling her close
"I don't know anymore Lukas...I'll have to think about it" she said pulling away from me
"I understand.." I sighed opening the door for her
I watched as she walked down the stairs and out the front door. Everything in me wanted to chase after her and tell her I was a fucking fool but I have to let her go if she was ever really mine. She will come back or maybe she won't. Either way it was some of the best moments of my life.
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Enchanted
Romancea painful love that was kept untrue but the only thing saving it was the love spilt through
