Hard Timez (Completed)

Never Love Another

Te'ambrah

For the pass weeks I had been staying nights at Kyron place until he begged me to move completely in with him. I wasn't to fine with moving in with him this fast, but after a long talk with him I finally agreed. It wasn't like he was trying to take no for an answer anyway so I put in my thirty day notice and packed up all my stuff. I wasn't fully ready to move in with him, but it was true I was always here by myself. I hated being alone, so maybe he was right it was time to take that step with him fully.
I drove over to the old house to pick up some more of my things and just as I was grabbing two of my bags, I hear a knock on the front door. I stood in the half empty room before walking towards door. In the back of my head I knew it was nobody, but Kyron coming to check on me although I had just left him. I flew the door open and I stood shocked as I was staring at Cayden with a pitiful look on his face. I crossed my arms over my chest and grilled him hard "What do you want Cayden"? I said in a harsh way.

"We need to talk" he said walking pass me basically letting his self in.
I stood there with the door open as my eyes following him "No we don't" said. The audacity of him to invite himself in without my permission demanding that we talk.
He turned and faced me, but his feet stood planted in the same spot he was in. He looked up at me and lowered his eyes, I inhaled and slammed the door closed and stepped closer to him with my head low "What Cayden"? I said low and more calmer.
"So you trading up on me for dude"? He asked making me grill him all over again.
"Well ain't that what you did to me"? I spat back at him.

"Nah I didnt" he said back.
"Yes you did you hurt me so bad and I had to pay for that not you I did" I semi yelled while pointing at myself as tears streamed down my cheeks. "You chose her over me so I don't know why your here. I finally moved on and now you wanna get back in my good grace... where were you when I needed you and I had to cry myself to sleep?"
"Te'ambrah you act like I meant to hurt you" he said still calm.
She took a deep breath "You did... there's no excuses your not a child we aren't kids anymore you knew what you were doing was wrong we could have figured this thing out together Cayden. I know you lost ya grandmother and I'm sorry for that, but why did I have to lose you too... huh why?" I cried out, literally breaking down.

" I'm tryna to win you back Te, I'm lost and my head is halfway gone I don't know what to do without you yo" he said causing me to look up at him with a sad face.
"It's to late for that" I said sucking it up and wiping my tears.
"It's not to late, Te'ambrah this dude can't love you like me he can't be there for you like me we got history your the only girl I have ever loved from childhood to now I waited for you to come back and when you did I promised myself I wasn't gonna let you go. I know I fucked up... I know I did, but baby let me fix this... let me fix us"he said walking closer to me.
"Kyron is the one who loves me now he's been here for me when you turned your back on me Cayden why couldn't you do this before" I said kind of raising my voice again.

He inhaled standing face to face with me"Te'ambrah I'm so sorry" he said sincerely as he tried to rub the side of my face, but I pushed his hand away.
He frowned a little "Where is this aditude coming from Te'ambrah I know I fucked up bad but this ain't you" he said.
I looked up at him with glossy eyes "You made me this way" I softly said.
He inhaled while wiping his hand across his face like he was in deep thought. "Is there still a baby Te'ambrah"?

I contiplated on telling him the truth, but still went against it quickly only because I knew for sure that he wasn't gonna let me go "No, I had a miscarriage Cayden" I said lowly in tears.
When I told him that he looked as if he was ready to cry, but he was hard up I knew he could hold himself together. I knew eventually he would find out the truth, but right now I just needed him to leave me alone.
Before I knew it he had gently pulled me to him and grabbed my face in his hands "Te'ambrah I love you and I always will nobody could ever replace you all I want us to do is look pass this and hopeful one day we could be friends again like we were the first day we met when we were kids" he said the last part with a smile.
Tears fall down out my eyes again because as hard as it was to completely walk away from Cayden and leave my feelings behind I knew that's what I had to do.

"I wish we could go back to then and start all over again" I said staring in his glossy eyes.
He stared at me back with them soft eyes I once loved "I do too ma".

More tears poured out my eyes as I pulled him into a hug and shed my last tears with my head in his chest, in my head I was done, but in my heart I wanted Cayden and to make everything right again. For us... for this baby that I told him didn't make it.
Even though I knew it could never be a us again, we both made mistakes that I didn't think could be fixed. My feelings were all over the place honestly.
No matter what, I knew Cayden had a part of my heart and I would Never Love Another the way I loved him.