Vic: 1
I am not ready for the real world. I guess I know how to handle situations like getting into brawls, losing money from down the street, driving a car without having to kill anyone who passes by, etc etc. Looking for a job and paying the rent though. Stuff like those. Drives me nuts. Of course, as a male human being that I am, things like those shouldn't bother me. Or at least make it seem like it shouldn't bother me. Yeah, boys also have those kinds of shit feelings and emotions. I don't get how other people (GIRLS) always perceive us as passive, insensitive, and you know, act like the stereotypical guy they have implanted in their heads. Eh.
I'm sharing a small apartment with my buddy, Collin. He's a pretty cool dude. Likes to chill (a lot). But he likes to work (a lot) too. He has a girlfriend named Jenn. She lives with us as well. And both Jenn and Collin like to fuck (a lot). Doesn't bother me at all since Jenn isn't necessarily my type and fucking isn't even a big thing to worry about. Anyways, I have other stuff to mind.
"Vic, have you ever seen the leftover sushi I brought home last night?" Jenn asked me from the kitchen.
"It's somehwhere in the refrigirat-"
"Nevermind, I already found it." Jenn cut me off.
"Okay." I remarked.
Jenn sat next to me on the couch after grabbing the sushi from the kitchen. She looks very casual as opposed to what she looks like on a daily regular basis. Not that I'm aware of it.
"So, Vic, what's up?" Jenn asked me again.
"Eh. Today's a Saturday. Might drop by some store later to get some shirts." I answered.
"Great. What about your lovelife? Found anyone yet?"
Yeah. My hand. "Nah. Too busy for that thing."
I felt Jenn's eyes glare down on me. "Busy?! Come on. Don't be a lazy bum. Go get yourself a princess!"
I chuckled. "A princess? Having you here is already enough for a bratty princess. What more if I bring home some girl?"
"Shut," Jenn punched me on my arm. "up. Seriously though. It's not hard to pick up some girl. You just need a little bit of confi-"
"I know. I just don't feel like it. You can't just push me off a cliff and expect me to fall on someone to be saved. "
Jenn sighed. "Well, you do have a point. But nonetheless, you need a girl. I'm starting to feel lonely in this apartment considering that I already live with my boyfriend."
"Well. Shit happens."
I rose from the couch and walked to the balcony leaving Jenn alone on the couch. That woman must be really bored with her lovelife right now considering that she and Collin often sleep a lot together and the like. But me? I don't know. I have other stuff to do. A girlfriend would be nice, I guess. Although I don't think I'll be a 'responsible' boyfriend. Ha. I dated girls before and it was pleasant to say the least. They all had to end at some point though. Sad, but life has more to give. That's what my counselor told me when I was 15. It was clichè but mostly true. When a door closes, a window opens. Life.
I take out my pack of cigarettes and lighter from my pocket and light a stick. It's pretty chilly today. That's alright, I'm used to it. I suck out the smoke from the stick and inhale it as much as I could. I pull the stick off my lips and slowly let the smoke exit my mouth. Feels great. It has always felt great. I repeat the same old routine as I space out on the wide open view of the balcony. It's days like this where I just feel like I'm almost floating, almost lifeless, almost sleepy. Ha.
I hope there's something more than what I'm doing right now.
