Masked - A Larry Stylinson Fan-Fiction

Chapter 13 - Masked.

Chapter 12

My hands shook, as I wrote. My skin had lost its colour.

"Louis," I wrote, "Well, how do I start this? How am I supposed to start this? God, you always knew what to say, why can't you just tell me what to say now? Well, I suppose I could start with, I'm sorry. Louis, I'm so sorry I wasn't strong enough. I tried Lou, I promise I did. I kept fighting, but in the end it wasn't my battle to fight. I've already lost. Please don't be as weak as I am Louis. Please don't ever stop fighting. God, my hand won't stop shaking. I suppose now would also be a good time to tell you I love you. Yes, you did read that probably, I Harry Styles have fallen Truly, Madly, and deeply, in love with my best friend Louis Tomlinson. You have no idea, how much I love you. It's tearing me apart Lou, there's only so much one's heart can take you know? And well I think mine's had it. It's been torn at, ripped, and broken, but hey it's still beating. For now...

Promise me something will you Boobear? I know you will you never broke your promises. Don't blame yourself. God Lou, you were the only thing that kept my heart beating for this long. But unfortunately my heart wasn't strong enough to give the love that was needed for both of us. You know what I wish more than anything though Lou? I wish I could hear your laugh, just one more time before I go. For see that little twinkle of light in your left eye. I'm sorry I have to leave you Lou. I really am, but my mind hasn't given me any choice. I can't breathe right anymore Lou. My thoughts are drowning me. Promise me you'll keep smiling? I know it'll be hard but will you do it for me? And for the boys? Oh god, tell the boys I love them will you? And promise me you'll all stay as a band. Don't ever stop being the four singing idiots that became a family to me. Oh Lou, my hands can't stop shaking. I guess I'm scared, but it's alright. At least I can still watch down on you. God, Louis I really want to tell you how hard this is. You remember those days? You would stay up so late with me drawing circles on my back, and playing with my curls till I feel asleep again. Those are the memories I'll keep forever. No matter where this takes me. I'm sorry I won't be around to watch you and Eleanor grow old together, but you have no idea how much it hurts. Remember how you felt when you thought you didn't make it through the X-Factor? Remember how you felt your heart literally shatter in your chest, try re-living that every day. But don't break up with her because of this, promise me you won't? Eleanor is a beautiful girl Lou, and I see how happy she makes you. That makes me happy. God, I told myself I'd make this short and quick, you know like ripping off a Band-Aid? But that didn't really work out did it? I just want you to know, I love you Louis. I really, really love you. And I promise I'll watch over you, I promise I'll keep you from doing something as stupid as this. Will you tell Gemma and Mum I love them? Look after them for me will you? I wish I didn't have to do this. My heart is pounding so loud, I can hear it thumping in my ears. Well, I suppose this is good-bye. I promise I'll see you again soon Lou, okay? But don't let go as soon as I did, okay? Be the stronger one. I love you Louis. God, I love you. We'll see each other soon.

Love, yours always,

Harry.xx"

I had tears covering my face as I folded the letter and placed it in the bed where Louis once laid. I closed the door breathing in.

"It's nearly over Harry, you're almost there."

I wiped the tears from my face, and jogged to the kitchen grabbing my keys, I opened the door walking out of the flat to buy the pills that would bring my life to an end.

***

I sat on the bathroom floor, the tiles cold beneath my skin. My wounded wrists exposed to a naked eye. I held the pills tightly in my hand.

"Just do it Harry, all your pain will disappear."

"But what about Louis, and the boys, they'll be in pain..." I whispered.

"They don't care about you Harry, if they did you wouldn't be in this situation."

My eyes didn't remove themselves from the pills that shook like bullets in my weak hand. My eyes snapped to the door, when I heard the house creak.

"Ignore it Harry, you are doing this for a reason don't forget that..."

I dropped my head, pulling at my curls, a habit that had unknowingly grown on me. "When did my life turn into this mess?" I whispered.

"It didn't turn like this Harry you were always like this, you just knew how to mask it, and now your mask has been removed, and you're left a naked monster."

I was now crying hard; as I took the pills and arched my head back, ready to down them all in one go.

"Harry!" It was Louis voice. "Harry please answer me!" he screamed.

I tried to answer by my throat had swelled and the words were clogged.

"Forget him like he forgot you Harry, just do it. Do it now!"

"Harry, for fuck sake! Harry, please answer me." Louis voice was as soft as a whimper now.

"He's going to find you Harry, you need to go it now."

My hands shook as the pills slid like, knifes across my bare skin, down my throat.

It was then that Louis found me. "Harry?" His cheeks sparkled in the dim light, his tears decorating his cheeks like glitter.

"Harry, I'm so gla-," He stopped when his eyes landed on the empty bottle beside me. "Harry!" He screamed.

He fell to his knees. I watched his hands shake as, he pulled out his phone.

"Louis," He was slowly slipping away from me...

"Hello? I need an ambulance, now! Please, my friend has had a drug-over dose!" He whimpered. "We don't have much time."

"But Lou," I whispered. "I have all the time a man could want."

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