part seven :
you done fucked yourself hunny
sean's pov
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okay im going to tell her. it's not gonna be that hard right?
"hey y/n?" i asked while we were walking home.
"yes?"
"w-why do you hate ry, i mean uh rylan so much?"
"sean did you just say 'ry' instead of rylan?"
"no, it was on accident. i uh, had a friend named ry so heh y'know im uh used to saying.. yeah"
oh man she looked at me weird. DAMNIT SEAN!! why are you so obvious with these things you dumbo.
"well, two years ago, i had one bestfriend. she always got bullied by rylan. physically, and emotionally. but she never told me and she would ignore me whenever she got hit really hard so i wouldn't know. then one day i saw her punch rylan really hard in the face. and i ran to her and yelled at her. i yelled bad things, i dont know why... i- i didn't know what she was going through. she was just defending herself. i yelled at her for being a 'bad person' when she wasn't. she ran away and i became friends with rylan. *sigh* long story short... rylan used me for things over time, i lost all my friends and i saw my old bestfriend down the hall, something made me do it. but i walked up to her and asked her, what made her punch rylan. she told me everything." she explained, and word for word you can feel the pain.
"y/n... im, im so sorry. that must have been so rough."
"yeah.. it was. knowing my own friends, my only friend at the time. used me and made me lose everything. i didn't know monsters were real until i met her."
i began to rethink this.
should i tell y/n im good friends with rylan now? i even skipped classes just to talk to her. I DIDN'T EVEN GO TO MATH CLASS!! maybe y/n's right and rylan is trouble. but i think im already lost in her eyes. is my fondness for rylan clouding my judgment? ughhhh. but she's so sweet and, im stuck.
"sean.. why did you ask me about rylan anyway?" she asked, suspicious.
fuck. there's no turning back now.
i breathed in real big and blurted out the words and waited for the consequences.
"IM REALLY, REALLY GOOD FRIENDS WITH HER NOW. WHEN I WENT TO RETURN HER PHONE WE may have flirted a bit, AND I MISSED CLASSES JUST TO TALK TO HER, Y/N SHE'S REALLY SWEET AND IS REALLY EASY TO TALK TO AND SHE UNDERSTANDS ME AND IS AMBITIOUS. IM SORRY!!"
your pov
(ohhhh shiiiiiit)
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did i really fucking hear those things come out of sean's mouth. the boy im fallin- im, im not falling for him he's, he's lame and and stupid, and likes GIRLS WHO ARE HORRIBLE IN EVERY WAY AND FUCK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM. FUCKING UGGHH WHY!!!
he, he flirted with rylan and she flirted back. he likes her and is falling for her games. he missed class, multiple classes to just talk with her.
i felt myself confused in all my feelings. i was up and down and sideways!
i wanted to ask why him. out of all the girls in this fucking school, her?
why am i even falling for him.
his hair?
his smile?
his laugh?
his.. his laugh..
his personality.
his ambition.
his talent.
his dimples.
his intelligence.
his- everything.
fuck.
what i hate most is that..
leila was right.
leila was right.
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(🍊-inal a/n)
/100% edited i hope
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600 words yES FINALLY (649 oh well)
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yeaaaa so this chapter was a huGE ass brain fart. its 3am and im writing this. maybe thats why. next chapter soon because hunny im on a roll. sorry for making your heart hurt sweet pea :/
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