Not Sure He Loves Me

Chapter 4

Kedwin's POV

"Just tell her!!" Nolan shouted, making the few students who were trying to learn before class begun, turn to look at us.

Sylvia gave them an apologetic smile and placed her hand on Nolan's shoulder to calm him.

I don't know why they don't understand that I'm scared to tell her that I_i_i_i_........ Ugh i can't believe I'm even stuttering when thinking.

The "L" word is just soo heavy for it to come out of my mouth.

"I agree with Nolan on this." Sylvia said.

"Of course you have to Babe." Nolan said and put a stupid grin on his face.
He got closer to Sylvia and tried kissing her, when she smacked him on the head.

"Ouch...." Nolan fake groaned as if he was really hurt.

These two just can't stop doing that.

"On a more serious note, you have to tell her before she slips from your hands." Sylvia continued completely forgetting about her boyfriend.

"Have you seen the way every guy in this school have been taken glances at Her, especially that jerk Ernest"

I nodded.

"Ok ok guys, I'll tell her immediately she comes to class.
But why don't you guys help me?" I asked because i noticed the only help they always give me on this matter is always telling me to man up and tell her how i feel.

Nolan shrugged his shoulders
"We wanted both of you to figure it out yourself."

"What do you mean by 'both of you'." I asked wanting to know why he added that phrase.

Nolan was about to answer when i turned to see Tracy there.

I thought she heard what we said but I noticed she wasn't even paying attention to us.

I immediately hugged her so that i can get some little courage to tell her.

She mumbled something under her breath and groaned as if in pain but enjoyed it.

"Why?" I asked concerned.

She said it was nothing and asked us what we were talking about.
Nolan was answering when Sylvia hit him.

A part of me wanted him to say it for me but another part wanted to do it by myself.

Nolan winked at me giving me the go ahead to go on.
As if on clue, he and Sylvia left us.

Tracy was about to leave when i held her wrist.

She turned to look at me.
I opened my mouth to say the damn word when the devil himself decided to come to class.
I was really, really, really annoyed with that teacher.

It was already lunch and the four of us were about to head to the cafeteria when Miss Gardener called out for me. I told my friends to go and that, i will come later.

"Kedwin I wanted you to know that you are a straight A student, so you getting even one B in your grades can really spoil your record." She said, trying to pack her books into her bag.

I didn't know where this was going to because i can't afford to have a B in my grades.
No!!!!

She sighed.
"You got a B in music"

"A 'B'? Bu_bu_but how???"

"I think you need to back up because you are coming down in almost every subject. Not only mine"
With this she left me in the class dump.

I walked to the cafeteria thinking about what Miss Anderson told me and about telling Tracy today about how i feel for her in the cafeteria.

Because she is the reason why i put in much effort to learn.
I just want our future with our kids to be blessed and not lacking in anything, not even money.

Who am i to even think of marriage and kids when i can't even tell her how i feel.

She gives me purpose.

I entered the cafeteria, seeing Ernest sitting at our table talking to Tracy. And no one else is on the table with them.
Seeing him with Tracy made me remember what Sylvia and Nolan told me.
"You have to tell her before she slips from your hand"

Ernest spotted me coming towards them and quickly left her to his table.

I sat next to her not even bothering to go for my food.

She gave me a small smile and continued munching on her food.
She doesn't feel really happy, its like there is something on her mind.

I brushed those thoughts off and tried focussing on the problem at hand.

I released a breath i didn't know i was holding and turned to her.

"Tracy"

"Hmm?" I held her hands.

"I've been wanting to tell you this, but i was afraid you will re....."

"Hi keddy boo." I was cut short with the most pleasant face and irritating voice i want see and hear every morning, (note the sarcasm).

Mandie!!!!!

I'm sure if i were to be in an animated movie right now, there would be smoke coming out from my nose and ears.

I don't know why whenever i'm about to tell her, someone tries to interrupt.

Someone! Someone! Just fucking someone!!!

She was walking towards us with a cup of fruit juice in her hands.
She engulfed me into a squeezing hug with the juice still in her hand.

I must admit, she has the curves and she is damn hot. But I just don't feel anything for her, except you know, lust.

I was brought out of my trance with Tracy yelling.

"You.just.poured.your.drink.on.me!!!!" Tracy said through her gritted teeth.
I rushed to her taking a tissue out for her.

"You haven't seen the last of me yet. Leave him alone." Mandy retorted back with an evil smirk.

"How many times do i have to tell you that, i'm not dating him and i don't intend to anytime soon."

What she said shattered my heart into pieces.

"Guys i'm still here." I blurted out so that, it covers the sad look i have on my face right now.

Tracy's POV

With what Kedwin just said, i took the tissue from him and run out of the cafeteria.
I bumped into Sylvia who took me to the washroom.
Thankfully when we got there, no one was there

"I'm not even dating him and see the hell i'm passing through." I said breaking the silence.

"Haha. They say love is pain but i don't even know whether the other person loves me or not." I laughed painfully.

Sylvia who was busy trying to get the stain off my white shirt, stopped and looked at me with a confused expression.

"Wait, he didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what"

The siren rung, making us hurry with the cleaning to leave to our class before we are late.
Soon, the sounds of feet outside the washroom died.

I walked out of the washroom first and was met with something i never thought i will ever see.
He broke my heart. I can't believe i would ever live to see this day. Tears i didn't even know were in my eyes and threatening to come out.

Not even realising Sylvia walked past me to see what i saw, she hugged me and led me back into the washroom.

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