(discontinued) Alex's Diary (On hold)

No. More. Secrets.

Dear Journal,

This entry might be the biggest one so far. Let's start from the VERY beginning.

---Flash back----

It was 6:30 pm. I was getting ready for the valentines day dance. Yes, I decided to go because everyone keeps begging me to go. When I was ready, I climbed out my bedroom window and started to walk to the school.

At school, everyone was waiting by the school entrance. Denis and Corl were sitting together, holding hands. Sk3tch and Jennifer were looking at the night sky. Sub and Olivia were cuddling together.

"Hey, guys" I mumbled.

"Oh, Alex! There you are! We've been waiting! What took you so long?!" Denis asked worriedly.

I didn't respond. Everyone was staring at me. Wait for me to say what's wrong. I desperately wanted to run away. I was shaking in fear. Denis's eyes widen. He walked up to me and grabbed my arm and slowly unrolled my sleeve. I knew what he wanted to do...

"STOP! PLEASE! STOP!" I shouted yanking my arm away.

"I'll ask you again, what's wrong." He asked in a serious tone.

I again stayed silent. A part of my soul was saying to show them, but another part of my soul was saying not to show them.

"Alex," Denis repeated.

I eventually lost control of my sanity. I was boiling hot on the inside. I wanted to explode. I keep my anger and my sadness inside. In the end, I couldn't hold myself together.

"SO! YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I DO TO MYSELF HUH!?" I shouted.

Everyone backed up. Their eyes filled with fear. I started to chuckle. It just made me laugh. I laughed at their ignorance about the REAL me. I rolled up my sleeves and showed them my cuts. Denis couldn't believe what he was seeing. Sk3tch walked up to me and grabbed both of my wrists and pinned me against a wall. I struggled to free myself.

"Alex, why are you doing this!?" He asked.

"Because no one understands the pain I've been through," I whispered in his ear before kicking in the stomach.

I shoved him off and threw him onto the ground. I kicked him one last time in the stomach, only this time it was a hard one. I walked away from Sk3tch body and walked towards Denis, Sub, and Corl.

"Don't Get any closer Alex!" Denis shouted, protecting Sub and Corl.

I chuckled.

"Oh Denis, if only you knew the pain I've been, through," I repeated.

I punched him straight in the face. His eyes narrowing into my eyes. He charged at me. I dodged most of his attacks. Doing flips and other movements. I was finally able to bust one of Denis's knee caps. He collapsed on the ground. Corl ran over to him.

"ALEX! WHAT WHAT YOU JUST DID!" Corl shouted.

I eventually snapped out of my anger.I looked at the damage I did. I looked at Sub, who was hiding his girlfriend behind him. 

'I'm a monster' I told myself.

"Alex," Sub said.

I ran as fast as I can into the woods behind the school.

"ALEX WAIT PLEASE!" Sub shouted.

I didn't look back. I climbed into the highest tree in the forest. I looked up at the sky thinking about what I did and why I did it.

"Please talk to me Alex," I gasped and saw Sub sitting on one of the lower branches.

I remained quiet.

"Please," he begged.

I jumped out the tree and landed on the ground without breaking anything. As I started to walk home I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. I turn around and see Sub with a worried look on his face. 

"Alex. Please talk to me," he asked.

"Why are you talking to me Sub?" I asked.

"Because you're my friend," he replied.

"Didn't you see what I did back there?!" I yelled.

I walked off leaving Sub alone. I suddenly hear someone running. A hand suddenly grabbed my wrist. I turn around and see Sub.

"Alex, before you go, can I tell you something?" he asked.

"Uh, sure," I mumbled.

"Well, I never actually like Olivia. I was scared people would judge me because I'm gay..." he said.

"Uh, Sub?" I said.

He looked at me, his eyes full of tears. I wiped them off and smile.

"Ya knows Sub, the reason I act so differently in front of you is because I'm also gay..." I replied.

His eyes widen in hope. Our lips were a few inches from each other. He suddenly locked our lips together. I kissed him back. I wrapped my arms around his waist. He broke the kiss and stared into my eyes.

"I love you, Alex"

"I love you too Sub"

----flashback ends----

That was the happiest moment of my life. I loved the feeling of his lips on mine. Well, gtg journal, my new boyfriend is calling me.

-Alex

A/N: Dude, 774 words... a new record.