Dear diary :)

Chapter 17 - Stay

Dear Diana, 20-12-16
Hey, here we go again! You won't believe what happened today. All my attempts to ignore and forget jerkpid went in vain. Wait, are you actually laughing on jerkpid... hahaha! I know, all thanks to Ana. It's a mix of jerk and stupid. Sometimes I wonder from where she gets so much creativity. Back to me, today I went to some stupid class for singing and started singing solo and ended up singing a duet with jerkpid. I know, I know how crazyyy. But the real problem lies in the fact that I'm still not over him. When I look in his eyes, all my emotions come running to me and I feel like hugging him till death. And above all, I have to sing with him together in fest. Ugh! Can my life get any messier than this. I swear I act like I don't care but deep down, it fucking hurts so much. Today, seeing him sad made my heart ache. Why can't I let him go. I'm hella confused. Please somebody tell me what to do in these cases? No need to search google, I already scanned whole web and got nothing. All they say is, don't hide your feelings. And let him know how much he hurt you. No, I won't do that. I still have a little pride left in me. Whoops! A call from Keeley. Gotta pick it up. Maybe she could help me. Bye !!
Princy

I closed Diana and kept her inside the drawer. After few rings, I picked up the call.

"Keeley"

"Princy. Gosh, I miss you so much."

"Me too Keels. Don't you know how much I miss our morning talks."

"Ah! I'm so alone without you."

"Don't worry Keels. Just a year and after that I hope you come here with me."

"Yes Pri. I'll definitely try. Btw, do you remember Travis?"

"Travis who?"

"That boy who lived besides you. Your secret admirer." I can imagine her smirking on the other side of the call.

"Oh damn! Yes I do remember him. And oh please, even you know he's my best friend, not any admirer. What about him?"

"Brace yourself Princy Sebert. He's coming there." A usual grin was apparent in her voice. I spat out all the water which I was drinking at that moment.

"What? Are you even in your senses right now", I yelled.

"I expected this from you", she sing-sang.

"Keels, if this is any kind of joke, I swear I'll hunt you down", I threatened her.

"Do you think I'll call you around midnight just to tell you a joke", she snorted.

"Yeah, you can't guess what's up with Keeley", I chuckled.

"Go fuck yourself, Princy. I just called to inform you. My work is over, have a disastrous sleep", she hanged up the call.

I stared at the phone in my hand. Like really, Travis is coming here. A part of me is so excited to see him again. Travis was my friend since nursery. We both practically grew up together apart of recent years when he shifted away temporarily. I realised we haven't talked since three years. There's so much happened within these years, that Connor drama, then here; my life became a perfect mess. As I think about him, I found how much I miss him. I just want him to be the same person as I left him. Thinking of him, I drifted off to sleep.

-*-

Life is so unpredictable, right. One minute ago, everyone was happily enjoying and suddenly the happiness went away leaving behind the sadness to fill the empty space. A tear escaped from my eyes as I keep on reading the tragedy. Everyone knows what kind of book lover I was, so its explanatory that why in lunch when everybody is doing stuff with friends, here I'm sitting beneath a tree and reading book. Ana was there besides me, furiously typing on her phone. Oh no, whoever is on other side is in deep trouble. I chuckled and went again on reading. I need to complete this book before the bell rings. I was about to turn the page when Ana shook me violently.