It's complicated

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I slowly walk into school, it's been a couple of weeks since I was last in school and I know that word will have spread and I'll be the school freak, as soon as I walk through the doors I feel eyes glued on me. I know they're talking about me, they're saying that's Briar Nolet the failure, the disappointment, the useless gymnast. I can't keep my head down though because of the neck brace, this leaves me with my neck bolt upright, having to make awkward eye contact with every single one of the people staring at me. I need to get away from the masses of people and the only place I know will be quiet is in my form room, nobody goes to lessons early. Ever.
I walk through the corridor, away from the thousands of staring eyes and questioning glances. Once I make it to the door of my form room I lean against the wall, taking deep breaths in through my nose and out through my mouth I slowly gain control of myself again. I glance up the corridor, there's just one person walking down the corridor nothing that I can't handle. I look down again, oh. That's Myles, what an earth is he doing here? He doesn't even come to this school. I turn my head the other way as much as I can but again the neck brace leaves me still being able to see him
"Briar, is that you?" he calls down the corridor, this is going to go well
"Ermmm, yes." I call back, why can't I keep my mouth shut?
"I wasn't expecting you to be back in school so soon." is he really doing this to me?
"I wasn't expecting you to be at this school." I say matching his cocky tone
"I got excluded from my last school." big shock.
"Why?" Wait, am I actually interested?
"I'm too 'challenging' for that school." he says, I don't imagine that's exactly the reason but I'll let it go
"How's Logan?" I ask, changing the tone of my voice
"She didn't make it." He says quietly, he genuinely looks sad
"I'm so sorry." I say, he looks awful
"I guess I'd kind of forgotten why I genuinely fell for her in the first place." He whispers, he really does miss her
"It's okay." I say, he nods
"I really wish she didn't die." He says, whilst wiping a tear away
"What changed your mind, when I spoke to you you didn't seem to care what happened." I ask, he shrugs
"I watched her die. I turned up at the hospital and sat down next to her bed, I couldn't be bothered but I knew I should. That's when machines started beeping and going crazy, I took her hand in mine and squeezed it in mine. She was freezing but I couldn't let go, I remembered what she'd last told me, if I'm dying don't tell the doctors. I knew she wouldn't want them busying around her so I just let her go and kept holding it until everything slowed down and I knew she was dead." He was sobbing and I was sobbing, the Myles I know would never do that, he doesn't care but maybe he genuinely has changed.
"I'm here for you." I say whilst pulling him into a loose hug. Maybe he isn't all bad. we both stop crying in the hug and then the bell goes, we pull apart and Myles walks off to his room.

It's nearly the end of the day and I haven't seen Myles since this morning but he's not left my mind all day, I can't believe that the Myles who sent me nudes is the same person who was sobbing in my arms this morning. There's a nock at the door of our classroom and somebody walks in, everybody else knows who it is but I cant bend my neck around enough to look so I have to keep looking forward
"I've been sent in here." a familiar voice says, Myles
"Take that free seat next to Briar." the teacher says as he points at the empty seat next to me, Myles slouches into the chair
"He B." he says, wait. He's back to the old him
"Hey." I whisper, not wanting to get into trouble
"So, how's life?" I need to ignore him
"Fine, I guess." so much for ignoring him
"I'm doing pretty great." he says with a grin, I could have sworn he was sobbing into my shoulder like an emotional wreck only four hours ago
"Are you sure?" I check
"Pretty sure, why?"
"This morning, you crying, Logan." I say, trying to jog his memory
"Oh, that. That was nothing." Well now I'm confused.

This new Ed sheeran music though.....❤️