It's complicated

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I can't believe what I'm seeing but for some reason I can't walk out, I was so ready to tell him how I felt, I was so ready to talk to him but right now he's kissing some girl and I've got no chance with him anymore. My brain's telling me to leave and forget but for some reason my feet don't feel like moving so I just stand there, watching Myles Erlick kiss another girl. Wait, who is the girl? She kind of looks like Shelby but Shelby wouldn't do that. It can't be her but it looks like her so much, if it is then I'm not sure what I'll do, she's the one person who's even bothered talking to me since my injury, one of my few friends. I know she doesn't mean to hurt me but it feels aimed, like she's telling me that nobody needs me here anymore. A small tear leaves my eye and I know of I hang around any longer they're going to notice me, so I silently turn around and walk out of the room. Maybe I was acting too fast, how could I like Myles anyway? I'm not like him at all.
I walk hop down the corridor and straight into the toilets, once I'm hidden from view I allow myself thirty seconds of crying before I've got to pull myself together again and pretend nothing happened. I wipe away the tears, pull myself together and leave the bathroom. Now I just need to pretend none of this Myles kissing a girl, possibly my only friend, and get on with school.
I'm waiting outside my form room when I hear an excited voice behind me
"Briar. Guess what?" the voice, who I've now decided is Shelby, says into my ear
"Ermm, I don't know." I say weakly, why do I think this has something to do with Myles?
"I've got a boyfrienddddd." she says, definitely something to do with Myles
"Who's the unlucky boy then?" I might as well make a joke out of it I guess
"Myles Erlick. As in the new boy, Myles Erlick." I sigh, I guess it was Shelby then
"How did you get him?" I ask jokingly, trying to pretend this isn't hurting
"I don't know. I guess I'm just impossibly beautiful." I have to smile but I can't help but feel insignificant, why did I think a broken girl like me stood a chance with somebody as beautiful as Shelby?
"Hmmmm." I say jokingly, we both know she's beautiful. Maybe Shelby's a better friend that I thought, I mean she told me about her and Myles and we were joking like real friends. Maybe I can go back to how life was before my injury. I see Myles walking down the corridor and I instantly think he might be coming to chat to me but then I remember, he's here for Shelby, not me.
"Hey Shelboop." Myles says with a light kiss on her lips, Shelboop? Really? It's not even a good nickname.
"Hey Mylo." she says before kissing him again, it's less of a light kiss this time though, I have to turn away. It's way to gross to watch, I feel awful but I can't say anything. I'm insanely jealous of Shelby and I can't stand that my only friend is with the one guy I've ever liked in my life. Perfect, just perfect
"Ermmm." I say, trying to break the up. They both break apart and Myles turns to look at me
"Oh yeah, Briar I forgot you were there sorry," he says sincerely, I feel honoured to be spoke to politely by Myles "Can I have a quick word with you?" he asks, I nod
"Sure, talk." I say, I know he probably means alone but I don't want it to look like I want us to be alone
"Not here, follow me. Shelboop, babe stay here." I follow him down the corridor until we're alone
"Briar, I was wondering, can you keep Logan a secret and me kissing you and all that form Shelby?" he asks, I wasn't going to tell her but if he wants me not to tell her this much I guess I can use it as a bargaining tool
"On two conditions," I say, he nods his head "Number one, you stop being so two faced about you're emotions. You know what I mean, right?" I say, he nods his head
"I guess, I'll try and stop." he says
"good, condition number two, you get your life together, stop messing around at school, stop breaking girl's hearts and whatever you do don't hurt Shelby." I say getting quiet serious, he nods again but this time he looks less certain
"I'll try but that's not who I am, girls through themselves at me and I can't say no for some reason." he says with a wink
"stop." I like him winking at me but I can't let him do it
"But you know what I mean, that's just me. Myles Erlick the player." he says as if he's proud of that title
"Well you're at a new school now so you change that reputation and you stop being an idiot and you're going to start getting good grades and whatever you do you make sure Shelby doesn't get hurt or she'll know about you kissing me in hospital and Logan and if I'm feeling practically cruel I might tell her about all those other girl's hearts you've broken." we're both silent for a second
"I guess you've got yourself a deal." he says, making me smile.

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