It's complicated

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It was finally the end of the world most awkward lesson ever. I'm almost certain that the crying, emotion Myles that I saw this morning was all just a hallucination, he was back to his usual ways. He spent all lesson telling me how pointless school was and how sexy he was and how sexy I was...... I've never really had the time for boys and nobody has ever called me sexy before, it felt kind of special I guess. Why does everything he says to me annoy me so much but also excites me, for some reason I want him to be sent into my next lesson but at the same time I never want to see him again. Ughhh boys. I used to think that gymnastics was complicated but right now the one thing that's taking up my whole mind isn't gym or my injury. It's Myles.
"Briarrrr." I hear a frustrated voice say in my ear, I turn around and see a girl who I think is called Maisie
"Ermm, sorry." I say whilst stepping out of the way, why do I keep on zoning out whenever I think of Myles? Why is he the only thing in my mind?

It's finally the end of one long day, I spent all day hoping Myles would turn the corner but at the same time I couldn't think of anything worse, I've never been so confused. Maybe I should just talk to Myles, tell him how I feel and how he's forever in my mind or maybe I shouldn't. It will only end badly if I do anything. I make my way to my Mum's car and climb/fall into the seat
"Good day?" She asks
"Yeah. It was alright." I lie without even thinking about it because I've spent most of my life telling her complete lies about everything, I just know if I tell her the truth she'll get all protective and worried for no reason.
"Good, good." Is all she says before starting the car, we sit there in silence, maybe it would be good to tell her. Or maybe not.
I've got a snapchat from Myles, I know instantly that I'm going to open it but it takes me a few seconds to actually click on it, I open in and see a black screen with just the word
'Homework?' And I thought it might be interesting, ah well. I type out an answer before lowering my phone off and flopping onto my bed, my whole mind was overrun, I need to do something.

My alarm goes off and I instantly get out of bed, for the first time in years. Today is important, very important. I'm going to confront Myles about how I feel and it can either go two ways and to be honest I don't care which way it goes, I just need to get it off my chest. I get dressed and eat breakfast before hobbling outside and into my Mum's car, I don't say anything to my Mum instead I just stare out of the window, thinking about Myles again surprise surprise.
Once we're at school I clamber out of the car and into school, I need to find Myles now before I chicken out of finally admitting how I feel to Myles. I walk around fir a minute or two but can't see him anywhere so I decide to try the band room. The one almost quiet place in school. I hobble down the corridor and through a door and then through another door and then I'm in front of Myles but I'm seeing him kiss another girl.

I'm probably not going to update regularly, more like once a week or once every 5 days but school has to come first.....