It's Too Late (Septiplier)

14.

~Jack~

I grabbed the soggy journal from the sink. I stared at it for a while. I couldn't bring myself to throw it away even though it was completely ruined. I wrapped it up in paper towel and shoved it back into my bag.

I pulled out my phone. I was surprised they didn't take that, but there really wouldn't be much use to them anyways. It's locked first of all, and secondly, it doesn't have many contacts, many pictures, or any special information on it.

I checked the time. It was almost second hour. No one had gone looking for me. No one cared enough to do so.

I sighed and put my phone away. I walked out of the bathroom and down the hallway to my class. As I did so, the bell rang. People poured out of the doors surrounding me. I was stuck in the middle of the halls.

I was being pushed every which way. I got knocked into and shoved around by the taller and much more popular people who couldn't give a shit about who they knocked into. However, I was lucky enough to get pushed near the lockers on the left side, which gave me enough room to scoot by mounds of people. The left side is also where my next class is located.

I finally made it to my next class surprisingly in one piece. I slid into my chair and sighed as I rested my head into my arms. Why did I have to start the day like this?

Not much happened in that class, as expected. There wasn't even a 'where were you this morning.' There wasn't much other than a grumble come from the teacher. Of course there was snickering. Who knew what James, Matt, and Milo spilled about me. I just tried my best to ignore it.

Soon enough, the bell rang. It was now our lunch period. I decided I would actually go to lunch today, not that I was going to actually eat anything. I just thought I might get a chance to talk to Mark. I am just hopeful that he doesn't know.

I drag my feet on the tiles all the way down to the lunch room. As silently as I can be, I open the lunchroom door. No one noticed that I even entered the lunchroom as they were too involved in their own conversations to even look up. I shuffled in a bit farther and looked around for Mark.

I took a sharp breath. I found him. He was on the opposite wall kissing a girl. I could feel my heart drop in my chest. I couldn't tell who she was exactly, but I could take a guess based on her height and hair color. It looked like Amy. I only stood there for a moment and looked at them. I then turned on my heel and walked back towards the door.

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't do it in front of them. It would also make me want to die more than I already do.

Once the door to the cafeteria closed, I sprinted to the art room that I had not visited in a long time. I tried to hold in the tears that were forming as I ran there, but they slipped down my face. I then made it to the art room and closed the door behind me. I sunk down against it and I let the tears fall down my face more rapidly.

I don't know why I was so upset. I told myself that he was straight. I knew that I shouldn't have gotten this hung up over him. I even knew that he probably doesn't have any feelings for me. He probably was just pretending to be my friend, too. I told myself not to do this because deep inside my brain, I already knew that it was going to hurt me.

I felt my wrists itch as tear after tear rolled down my face. I felt whatever is left of my icy heart fall into pieces and whatever sanity I had left felt like it was being shredded apart by insane thoughts.

I just wanted the day to be over, but there is still half the day to get through before I could satisfy my demons that lay beneath my skin.

After god knows how long, I get up and wipe away any trace of tears away from my puffy eyes. I grab my bag and toss it over my shoulder. I make my way out of the old art room and look up at the clock on the wall. There's still about three hours of school left.

I trudge my way to my class. I felt like shit the entire rest of the day. I went to the rest of my classes with the same tired and depressed look. Head hung low, silent. Eyes that are a bit shiny from the tears. No one questioned. No one even noticed. No heads turned. Nothing. I guess it makes sense. Give nothing to the nobody.

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I dragged my feet as I walked home. I never got a chance to talk to Mark, not that I wanted to now. I shook him out of my mind. I don't want to think about him.

I walked up the steps and into the house. My father wasn't there, good. I dropped my bag and immediately went to the bathroom. I pulled out my blade and decided to cut somewhere I haven't before. My stomach.

I pulled up my shirt and without thinking about it much I carved words into my stomach. Love is love. Blood seeped from the words on my stomach and I just stared blankly at it. I put the blade down in the counter. It wasn't enough.

I had enough sanity to wash off the blade and clean up the words on my stomach. I patched then up and pulled my shirt back down and ran to the kitchen. I went straight for my fathers alcohol cabinet. I swung it open and grabbed a random bottle from it. I closed the cabinet and ran to my room, closing the door behind me.

I sat down on the floor and looked at what I grabbed. Vodka. I popped it open and immediately downed some. It tasted awful, but I didn't care. I drank more. The room became woozier and woozier. My thoughts seemed to have gone silent and everything was fuzzy. I soon realized the bottle was now empty. I put it down. I felt strange.

My body was feeling quite heavy. I felt my body connect with the ground as my eyes drooped. As my eyes completely closed, I hoped that I would never wake up.

Yo what up? Yeah ok, I'll stop. You all probably hate me and love me so much because I updated but then that happened. Yeah I know. I would hate/love me too of that was went on. But I hope you're having a wonderful day/night/evening/morning/whenever you are reading this. I hope you enjoyed this. You guys might get another update today because I'm really excited to update the next chapter!