I run to Marie. "Marie, we need to go outside. now." She sends me a quizzical look and frowns. "No. It's time to cut the cake" she states. I shake my head and pull her through the crowd of people inside. She is holding up her dress as I rush through the building. "What's going on? Why are we running? I'm in heels" Marie hollers. I stop abruptly, causing her to bump into me. "Zayn's going to beat the shit out of Liam" I state seriously. She laughs and says "Why do you care? You don't love him anymore anyway!" I look down at my feet and nod. She was right, I shouldn't care. I should just let him get beat. But no matter what I say, I still like Liam. "That's not the point! Blood where you will walk into the limo" I say, hoping then she'll come. She shrugs and says "A bloody mess. A massacre maybe? I don't care though, it's just the ground." I sigh and jog away from her. Her saying a massacre scared me shit less.
"Zayn! Zayn stop it! Stop it now" I holler when I find Liam unconscious on the cement as Zayn hit him. Zayn looks at me and his brown eyes fade from anger to calmness. "Rose, I'm sorry. It's just.. You don't deserve to be treated like that. You don't even know what I'm talking about, do you" he asks, shaking his head. I am barely able to whisper "What?" Zayn frowns and tells me to sit down "When I got outside Liam was waiting. He told me he expected as much. That he wanted to look like the good guy by not fighting back so you'd take him back. Then he fought back and said that he'd eventually get you back, drunk or not." My lip begins to quiver. I wanted Liam back but it seems as if he's turned into a monster. I didn't want Liam to be a monster. I wanted him to be normal. I did not want Oliver near him. Never. "What the hell is wrong with him?! He's a monster! Why is he acting out" I cry uncontrollably. Zayn wraps his arm around my shoulders and attempts to comfort me. "Let's get him inside" Zayn says, getting up. I nod, wiping my tears away. Zayn takes Liam inside and not much later Liam comes to. Niall walks into the reception and taps on my shoulder "Liam wants to talk to you." I shrug and give Oliver another bite of cake. Niall pulls me into the room Liam was in. "Niall! I don't want to talk to the ass hole! He broke my fucking heart and now I have to raise another child! Without help! He's a monster! I don't even know him anymore" i say as I blink back tears.
"I'm here still" Liam comments. I spin around, filled with rage. "And you! You think you are going to get me back! No way in hell! I am not forgiving you! Don't even try! You will not win! I'm sick of your shit" I holler. Liam flinches at my use of harsh words. I'd never really planned to blow up. "I just wanted to let you know what happened while I was out" he quietly mumbles, it was barely audible. What the hell is he smoking?
"Tell me."
"We were happy again. Oliver was five and our daughter was four. You didn't have a single scar and neither did I. We were normal. Oliver took care of his sister when you cleaned and he was so good. Everything was back to normal."
"No. That was not normal. That was a delusional dream because I can't see us being together again."
"I don't want to win this time. I just want you."
"Please Liam! Enough lies! You just want a naive girl who will let you fuck others without her knowing! Find someone else I'm done."
"So am I" he whispered as I walked out. I didn't know what he meant but I thought I knew. And I didn't like the thought. If he meant what he had said and I'd rejected him then he plans on taking his life and making sure it works. I pushed the thought back and quickly left the wedding. I went to every therapist possible, still dressed up. If Liam planned on ending his life, I was going to need a way to cope. But first, I need to help Liam without falling for him again. I go back to the wedding and ask Liam if we could meet at the house and talk. He nodded and not even ten minutes later we were at the house. The house was so clean but something was different. The walls had been painted and the floors had been replaced with a new carpet. All furniture was changed. "I hope you know I don't like that one girl. I just wanted to make you jealous" he confesses. I nod, at least he's honest. "What about the slut" I snap. Oliver was in his room playing with toys. "That was a drunken mistake, like I said" he states firmly.
"Okay, now here is a bunch of pamphlets for therapists. I don't like you but I figure Oliver and the baby deserve to know their father."
"I've left a mark on the world, they can look me up online."
His words tore my heart to shreds. "Liam! Knock it off! I'm sick of you saying stuff like that! It's hard on you? You didn't get cheated on and left without a house! I've made it out of this without a single new scar" I snap, running a hand through my hair.
"Rose! This isn't even me trying to get you back anymore! I'm done trying! I don't see living if I can't be happy! Not everything is about you!"
"I never said it was! Liam, do you want the fucking truth? Cause I'll fucking tell you!"
"Then tell me God damn it!"
"My life is hell! You were my fucking sun in a life of darkness! You made me happy and then you broke my trust! How can I trust you again?! Believe me, I want to trust you again! But I can't trust you and this is why I can't be with you!"
He lets a tear slip and I feel bad. "I am trying to make it better! I promise I will! But you have to let me try! You aren't letting me try" he cries. I sigh and sit on the couch "Let's talk visitation and if you can handle taking care of Oliver until I think it's fine then I'll consider trying us again. But never until I'm ready." He nods and we begin to discuss when he can see Oliver. "Every other week" I state in confirmation. He nods and the cringes "Well until I go on tour again." My jaw almost hits the floor. "What? When were you planning to tell me" I say in shock. How long has he known? Did he know when I told him I was pregnant? Is that why he acted out? "Well, I was going to tell you before you announced the pregnancy and I was so stressed and upset that I went off" he explains.
"Th- that gave you no reason to blow up on me" I stammer. I can not be with him. Not now. Not ever. Liam is in the past. It's like we got divorced. The only part we will share is Oliver and maybe the new baby. I can't decide if I want him near the new baby. He'd try to turn it against me. "You are right. I shouldn't of done that. But let's not bring up the past. We have to make things good for Oliver and the new baby" Liam quickly changes the subject. I nod and we work out visitation for when Liam is on tour. We will have Liam fly back and take Oliver for a week every other week. He had called Louise and Louise had said that she'd watch him and Lux during concerts and tour shit. "Great! So, I'll finish the week with Oliver and you can have him next week" I ask, standing up. He nods and hollers for Oliver. "Daddy! Dad" he says running to Liam. Liam picks him up and kisses him. "Bye onry, be good for mpm. See you next week" Liam frowns sadly as he tells Oliver goodbye. Oliver nods and I leave with Oliver. I guess it's time to house hunt. I meet Marie and Niall at the house. They are packing for their romantic trip to Greece.
Of course Marie would find the perfect guy. She has always had a perfect life. Her parents loved her and basically worshipped everything she did. But, that was her life. I had a horrid life. I lost the "perfect guy". To make it worse, I had one kid that looked like him to remind me and another on the way. I had to search for a house and get a second job. Not to mention that would mean finding a good sitter for the kids. Ugh, talk about the stress. "Bye Rose" they say and leave. Oliver wanders around the house as I search the web for houses. When I find one I'm interested in, I click it. Eventually, I made a plan to view the house with a real estate agent. Then I make some food for Oliver and I. I am really excited to view the house. It seems perfect. It's perfect rent and it has four bed rooms. I can turn the spare room into an office, toy room, or guest room. Not to mention there is a den and living room. I think I'll turn the den into and office, as I plan to start going to college online. Then, I'll eventually apply for a job in a lawfirm. Then, I'll turn the spare room into a guest room. Now that some goals are made, I feel my life slowly peicing together. Without Liam.
