Another day to cry (Itachi x Sasuke fanfic YAOI!)

Sasuke's POV: I don't understand why everyone in this damn village is always so happy. Especially Naruto, he's like me in sense of no family but yet he's just so happy! And as for me, well, it's just another day alone. I'm used to it. After Itachi left I had no one. I know that now i still have no one. I'm just... alone. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Naruto and Sakura yelling at Kakashi for being, late yet again. I tuned them out, I didn't wanna hear another famous excuse from Kakashi. I just wanted to go home. Why? I don't know, something in my gut told me to go home. I felt like I was gunna cry. I don't know why. Then it hit me. Itachi left exactly 4 years ago today. That's why. I knew something wasn't right. I hate this day. Why? Because, Itachi likes to come back and torture me, make me think that he's coming back for good when he's just gunna leave me again. He always does. I didn't even want to go on the mission just go home. Kakashi must have knew there was something on my mind because he said "Sasuke, what's on your mind." "Nothing." I stated flatly. No emotion in my voice. "Ok then lets start on the mission." Kakashi says. The other to go off and start I was about to but Kakashi told me to stay back. "Sasuke I know something is wrong, tell me what?" "I just... I need the day off." I said flatly. "Why?" "Personal reasons." I said sharply, glaring at him. He only nods his head in agreement and lets me go home. I walk home and open and close the door behind me locking it. I pulled the shades closed and lie down on the couch. I start to cry as I remember what life was like before anything of this happened. Before Itachi killed the clan... before he left me. I wish those times never ended.

Flash back~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Itachi carried Sasuke on his back around the village looking for something to do. They were both bored. Then Itachi got an idea. "Hey Sasuke-Chan wanna watch me train?" Itachi new that Sasuke loved to watch his older brother train, he thought it was so cool how his brother could make fire appear out of nowhere! Little did he know that he would be able to that soon enough. Sasuke watched his older brother train for awhile with a lot of interest, and then he asked "Nii-san? (ShadowDei: another way to say older brother) What are u training for?" Itachi didnt answer. He never answered that question. And then finally years later Sasuke new what for. For him to kill the clan. Why did he ruin it? We were so happy?

End of Flash back~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sasuke finally let all of this emotions out and cried. He felt so confused, he should forgive Itachi, he shouldn't forgive him. He did love Itachi, deep down he knew that. But at the same time, he wasn't ready to forgive him. Sasuke laid there for a few minuets and cried. Then he heard "I thought you locked up all your emotions little brother." Sasuke's eyes widened. Itachi really came again. Then Sasuke remembered, he'd just leave again. "Itachi why do you torture me so?" Itachi looked confused. "What do you mean?" "Every time this day comes you have me believe that you've come back, when i know you'll just leave again." Sasuke stated flatly. "Sasuke I mean it this time." "JUST STOP IT! YOU SAID THAT LAST YEAR TOO!" "But Sasuke-" "LIES ITACHI ALL LIES!" "Sasuke please believe me this time." "Why, why do you always do this, you give me hope that you wont leave me and then you do." "Sasuke, I'll prove you wrong." "Itachi you always say that. Every year you break into my house and tell me all this stuff about how you wont leave and then you do." Sasuke said now in tears. "Sasuke I'll stay, i promise." "I don't trust you." Sasuk said. Itachi went over to this little brother and gave him a hug. Sasuke hugged his older brother back and cried into his older brother's chest. "Sasuke I promise, I wont leave you." Itachi said as he kissed his younger brothers head.