Handsome (V-Hope) {COMPLETED}

Flashback

It has been a while since I've written something like this. Triggering content ahead. Viewer discretion has been advised!
This part will be written as Hoseok's point of view!

This day has been shit! Nothing has been good at all about this day! I'm so tired of it all! Of everything! There is nothing left for me here. Nothing. The world is just an empty void with meaningless people saying meaningless words and doing meaningless things!

My parents are meaningless!
My girlfriend is meaningless!
My grades are meaningless!
One word. Meaningless!

What happened today that made me so angry? I don't think you want to know. I really don't think you do. But I'll tell you anyways!

I sprained my right wrist and left ankle in school today. I think one or two of my fingers are broken. My nose is definitely broken. My face is wounded. My body is full of bruises and blood. I was attacked today at school by those bullies. I was verbally abused today by the entire school. My dad tried to rape me again! My girlfriend broke up with me.

I don't care anymore. Life is full of pain right? People have it worse, right? I shouldn't be complaining, should I?

I'm not bulletproof. Sticks and stones hurt me just as much as words do. I am a human and I have feelings. I certainly don't feel like a human anymore though.

People keep telling me that I shouldn't be alive. They keep telling me to kill myself. That's what I'll do. I'll stop existing. I'll die slowly and painfully. Just the way I was meant to go.

The water splashes around inthe bathtub. It's so calming to look at water splashing around. Splash, splosh.

The blood from the cut I just made is what I use to write my suicide letter. That's what people usually write before they kill them selves, right?

'Dear meaningless person reading this.

I've decided to kill myself. Why? Everybody wants me to. No one likes me. No one. Everyone at school tells me I should die, they leave death threats in my locker. Some people beat me up. I probably deserve it anyways.

All my life I've been told that I was a mistake. That everything I did was a mistake. I was built for blame.

Don't blame yourself for my death. It was my fault. Who would even care? Tomorrow at school, people will celebrate when the teachers break the news to them. They'll dance on my grave. Ha, I'm so stupid for writing this.

The point of this letter is that I'm going to kill myself.

Bye!'

I finish the letter and sit down in the tub. The water is so warm that it scolds me. I cut deeper. The feeling I get when I cut myself is so satisfying. Everything disappears for a moment. The blood spews out of me. I think I just hit a vein. The room is going dark...

I wake up a couple of hours later. The room is literally dark now because it's in the middle of the night. The floor around me is a mix of red and brown. The water I'm sitting in is cold and red. Why did I survive? I didn't want to survive! I wanted to die! I WANTED TO DIE!

"Why didn't I die...?" I mumble as I stand up from the bathtub. I won't even bother cleaning. I'll probably try to die again later.

~magic time skip~

"I hate you! You're a disgrace to humans! You're a waste of time! You're a waste of oxygen!" He yells at me as he kicks me. I'm laying helplessly on the floor. "I'm going out. You better not be here when I get back!" He screams and slams the door shut after he has put his jacket on.

My sides are in pain. My stomach is in pain. I've gotta get out! I've gotta get out now! After ten minutes I get up and limp towards the door.

"I-I need to speak with someone..." I whimper as I limp my way out of the apartment.

The air outside is chilly, it has just rained. Cars are passing by me, some by-passers glare at me. Ouch! My foot really hurts! I've gotta get there before my foot completely gives up.

"Are you alone?" I ask after I've called Jin. It's now or never.

"Yes. Why wouldn't I be?" Jin replies.

"And you're home?" The words coming out of me sound scared.

"Yes."

"I need you to find bandages and some sterilizer. And I also need you to open the door when you hear a knock." I say to him as I hang up. The stairs that lead up to his front door is a few meters away from me.

I each the door and knock on it. Jin instantly opens it.

"W-what happened to you?" He asks, his hand covers his mouth.

"Help me..." I whimper as I fall into his arms. My foot has just given up apparently.

"Yeah, of course. Let us get you inside." He grimaces as he leads me to the living room. Jin helps me sit down on the couch. "Take of your clothing." He demands in an anxious manner. I take of everything except my boxers. There really is t anything interesting to see down there anyways. I mean, it's just a dick.

"What happened to you, Hobi?" Jin asks as he starts to sterilize the cuts my boyfriend left on me. I tell him everything that monster has done to me, Jin has a sympathetic look on his face.

"H-he said that he didn't want to see me when he got back from drinking. He said that I 'better not  be in the apartment when he gets back'. I-I can't anymore Jin, I'm so glad I told you..." I finish and whimper one last time as Jin finishes tying the bandage around my foot.

"Hey, you can stay with me for as long as you need to, I won't tell anyone. He can't hurt you anymore. He can't." Jin's words calm me down and I fall asleep on his couch as he fixes me up.